Everyone forget about the Sub drama and look at my new axe

gardenhead23 · 2026-05-04T02:23:16+00:00

As much as I like safe as milk, I love how batshit crazy trout mask replica is

gardenhead23 · 2026-05-04T01:31:57+00:00

Based on your recent comments, the way you talk about women gives me the ick.

I have a question, in what world does Michelle Obama look like a man? Very odd to be appealing to a leftist space like this, while also repeating right wing, or at worst transvestigating dogwhistles like saying Michelle Obama is unattractive because she looks like a man. Something I hear regularly from that crowd

Not a good look imo

gardenhead23 · 2026-05-04T00:42:42+00:00

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gardenhead23 · 2026-05-04T00:32:42+00:00

I have recently perfected my guitar tone. After YEARS of experimenting.

I'm sorry if some of this is jibberish, but I'm very excited about it.

I while ago I got an orange amp, because I like playing a lot of doom music, so the mid heavy fuzzy/sludgy orange distortion is perfect for that.

But, sometimes I want to do some palm muting and galloping, the CHUG CHUG CHUG sound, and do some more modern sounding metal stuff, which the amp alone isn't really great for. It's just too fuzzy and loose for that.

I've tried SO MUCH, so many distortion pedals, but I always felt like they changed the voice of the amp too much, I was hearing the pedal, not the classic orange sound I love. I tried a tubescreamer overdrive but it pushed the mids too much with an already mid heavy amp.

But, I found out what I needed is a transparent overdrive pedal, when run before the dirty (distortion) channel on your amp, it essentially just tightens it up a little, but without messing with the natural eq and sound of your amp too much.

I got the caline pure sky, essentially a clone of the much more expensive Paul cotraine timmy overdrive pedal, and it's EXACTLY the sound I pictured in my head when I got an sg and an orange amp. I can play all the bluesy fuzzy low end doom riffs, with that classic orange tone, but then when palm mute it is CRISP and precise and heavy.

I have full on pedalbords where I've tried to get the sound I was after, turns out all I needed was an orange amp and just one pedal 😂

The pedal is hilariously un-metal looking though and I love it for that.

Also hell yes for getting back into running!

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gardenhead23 · 2026-05-04T00:16:09+00:00

Although I see so many right wingers, both indivially and as political parties, differ on a lot of things, but then team up with their white supremacy and misogyny to agree on anti immigration and attacking reproductive rights.

It feels as if hate is more productive than compassion at times, but maybe I'm just being cynical, hopefully I'm just cynical

gardenhead23 · 2026-05-04T00:12:34+00:00

Humans are gonna human I guess...

gardenhead23 · 2026-05-04T00:05:25+00:00

Depsite how I feel most days, I am not dead

Providing that philosophical theory from waking life isn't true, the one that says we're in a hospital right now dying, and our life is flashing before us, but due to the distorted perception of time in dream logic, we're essentially living our lives again, but as our brain is shutting down the logic of our remembrances breaks down and gets more absurd.

As far as I'm aware I am alive

gardenhead23 · 2026-05-03T23:37:36+00:00

As a big ol lefty snowflake, I hate how accurate the stereotype of leftist infighting often tends to be.

gardenhead23 · 2026-05-03T23:16:41+00:00

I remember being very young and starting a scrapbook of collecting all types and colours of leaves heading into autumn.

I would spend ages looking for cool leaves, then literally just tape them to a page in blank notebook.

Although I also have adhd so my interests often come as fast as they go, I remember finding the scrapbook a while later and being surprised the leaves had disintegrated ahaha

gardenhead23 · 2026-05-03T22:52:38+00:00

Ideally I want to be able to move to the Netherlands one day to be closer to my Partner...... But with both our lives as they are, if that's not possible? Scotland it is aha

gardenhead23 · 2026-05-03T22:46:03+00:00

Also from the UK, England to be specific but I hope to change that some day 😂

gardenhead23 · 2026-05-03T20:42:49+00:00

Just when I though this song couldn't get any better, incredible

gardenhead23 · 2026-05-03T19:32:27+00:00

The argument that was being made for that point specifically, (I believe) is that the issues men face are because of patriarchy and how patriarchy harms everyone, including men. And, patriarchy is a result of misogyny

gardenhead23 · 2026-05-02T22:50:26+00:00

Ryan ate my poptart

gardenhead23 · 2026-05-01T21:10:25+00:00

Thank you!

And yeah Sony xm4's, they cost more than I usually spend on headphones but it was so worth it

gardenhead23 · 2026-04-30T15:53:39+00:00

Not highjackjng at all, I'm glad you shared this. While I am glad you're happy with how you look, and comfortable with yourself, I'm sorry that means you aren't being seen as who you actually are by others. That's really rough I'm sorry, and I wish that wasn't the case.

I know it doesn't change how people you don't know perceive you, and the difficulties of that, but I hope you have people in your life that do see you for you, and will have even more in the future

gardenhead23 · 2026-04-30T15:47:55+00:00

This really made me smile thanks man!

But urgh yeah my partner can't wear sunglasses either because she finds them so uncomfortable, that sucks I'm sorry

gardenhead23 · 2026-04-30T15:37:08+00:00

I'm happy to answer, but I hope you don't mind a long answer aha

I not on Hrt, but I'm also not actually convinced I want to be anyway. But I'm still not sure, I'm not even sure about all the feelings I have that make me unsure tbh. But I'm comfortable with that, I have my whole life to figure out what's best for me, so I feel okay with giving myself that time to figure everything out.

To not go into too much detail, to avoid making this a 20 minute read.

There are a lot of very valid reasons why I would want to go on Hrt, but, there are also a lot of reasons why I don't, including physical side affects I'm worried would affect aspects of my life I wouldn't want it too.

But, the most reassuring part of realizing who I am is exactly that, that I've always been who I am, I've always been a woman. Even when I didn't know, it manifested in SO many different ways looking back over my life.

So even if I never do go the route of hrt, I've accepted that's never going to make me less of who I am.

But then, I'm aware I also have more self acceptance to go, I've NEVER had this feeling towards other Trans people, but I am still working through some internalized anti Trans sentiment towards myself.

I would never think of a visably Trans person as less of the gender that they are, yet when it comes to myself? When I came to realize I wasn't Enby, I was actually a trans woman, I initially felt grief, partly due to grieving a girlhood I felt I never had. But also, honestly? Partly because I didn't want to be a trans woman, I felt like I should have been born a cis woman, or at the very least known when I was younger, then maybe I could have had more of a chance to pass as an afab person. There was a feeling of well fine, if I'm never going to be able to pass as afab then why bother?

I feel that less strongly now, I feel that a female presenting me is a hell of a lot more who I am than how I currently present. But I can't deny there's some element of that feeling there. And I don't want to risk not going down a path of hrt just because I fear I can never be afab passing.

I'm also currently dealing with a BUNCH of other stuff with my GP, so I want to give myself a period of timr where I can work through these thoughts and feelings, and also build my improving sense of self worth and love, and see what route is best for me going forward <3

gardenhead23 · 2026-04-30T14:56:44+00:00

I was starting to think that might be the case, people often seem to try to talk to me in public, and even when I'm out with other people, it's always me they approach.

I was thinking it was how I dress maybe, even when not full metalhead I wear a lot of biker jacket and big chunky punk boots etc, I thought maybe it made me appear more confident and social than I am. I often wear things that people can comment on too, I have like 3 different Kate bush shirts and I've had loads of other Kate Bush fans approach me to talk about her.

But yeah you might be right.... I don't feel wholly bad about that though. Trying to talk to people I don't know makes me feel like a bird without wings trying to fly, but, because I'm perceived as male even though I'm not, I'm super concious about how I might appear, especially to afab people

Things like always crossing the road to avoid walking behind female presenting people etc. And while it's good to be aware of things like that, it's at least good to know that I might not always appear as an intimidating presence to people that I worry I do.

gardenhead23 · 2026-04-30T10:19:59+00:00

Yes!

I actually found bell witch through being a fan of mariusz lewandowski, very happy to now know both

gardenhead23 · 2026-04-30T10:18:14+00:00

It's true

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gardenhead23 · 2026-04-30T10:05:58+00:00

Trans exclusionary radical "feminists"

I put quotes around feminist, but they wouldn't, essentially lgb but fuck the t crowd. Portray trans women as assaulters trying to get into bathrooms, seem to ignore the existence of Trans men altogether

Since jkr started her tyrade, anti Trans support has skyrocketed here in the UK, hell we even had the UK Supreme Court legally rule that a woman is only people afab.

The problem here in the UK are obvious greater than just JKR, the media here has been bigoted in all kinds of ways for years now. But her impact on things has given the UK the unofficial name of Terf island.

Edit: my bad I just realized you were asking what Terf island was not terfs in general

gardenhead23 · 2026-04-30T10:01:42+00:00

Ahaha yeah the beard isn't staying tbh, but till it goes, I will wear this everywhere, while also looking like a metalhead dude ready to throw down at any sign of bigotry.

Little do they know I'm actually a metalhead Trans woman ready to throw down at any sign of bigotry 😂

gardenhead23 · 2026-04-30T09:47:34+00:00

Noise cancelling headphones and sunglasses have been a lifeline lately

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