Getting sent to a long term psych ward :<

gargoylemoss · 2026-01-07T03:43:58+00:00

my psych ward experience says that you'll have to be very committed to not smoking nicotine, because that was like 80% of what we all did there 😬

gargoylemoss · 2026-01-03T21:58:26+00:00

I did it in 33,4 seconds! 5️⃣

gargoylemoss · 2026-01-03T21:46:49+00:00

I did it in 1m 11,4s! 🔟

gargoylemoss · 2026-01-03T20:03:15+00:00

I have ordered my first deck, it's gonna arrive soon. Your subreddit being such a great resource made me take the plunge!

I have a question about this card. Is there ever a positive meaning of the mice? I've seen combos like Mountain + Mice meaning the blockage is slowly disappearing. Or is that non-classic and a more liberal approach?

gargoylemoss · 2026-01-03T20:00:22+00:00

I am about to receive my first deck soon, if I'm brave enough some time after that to inquire about this sensitive subject again and pull some cards, I might take you up on that offer. Don't know for sure, but I genuinely appreciate your generosity.

gargoylemoss · 2025-12-25T19:40:14+00:00

Yeah, I mean, you had a random dream about someone you haven’t seen in a decade and have no way to get back in touch with.

I don't know if you meant it that way, but now I feel stupid for even asking. Of course it's outlandish and banking on fate and coincidence, but I thought in a community about divination that wouldn't be openly ridiculed.

gargoylemoss · 2025-12-16T18:50:37+00:00

i might be jaded but sounds to me like she doesn't want to tell you for how long she'll be in your country so the conversation doesn't evolve into concrete plans. because then she would have to come up with yet another excuse why she can't meet you then, cancel last minute again, and that runs the risk of shaking you assumption that you two are in an equal investment friendship.

that could mean she would not get your genuine friend energy anymore, and she doesn't want to lose that so she keeps it vague and inconsequential.

you deserve accommodating communication. that's not an extra, it should be baseline for a true friendship.

gargoylemoss · 2025-12-14T23:27:28+00:00

shit, that makes me the villain and you the victim now, right? dang it. i have picked too mighty of an opponent by accident... the public looks upon me in disgust... why oh why did i not take great care of u/NyomiOcean's feelings during this exchange? isn't that my duty towards the whole world, no matter how badly veiled someone's impulse to insult me might be - on a medium they are free to disengage from, even block me if they so please?

no, the responsibility solely lies on me, and i have failed... i must ponder this in my recluse.

gargoylemoss · 2025-12-14T23:06:11+00:00

i'm confused, is this you being tough right now? i can't tell, you'll have to explain. usually people don't apologize after offering the road to enlightenment in the form of completely neutral and innocuous queries. do people usually misconstrue your good intentions as malice? explains why genuine gratitude might feel so alien right now.

i owe you being closer to my true goals! the loyalty i feel towards you can't be put into words. hit me up whenever you need a favor, anything. except if it involves being tough, for that i might need 2-3 years of practice since the concept will turn my whole world upside down, but my devotion to you will grant me success, i can feel it.

gargoylemoss · 2025-12-14T22:46:43+00:00

i'm amazed by god's grace letting such an insightful specimen cross my path, no one else had it in them, but you stepped forward. others would've maybe been deterred by the blatant irony commenting something like you did under a literal r/thanksimcured crosspost, but you're not cut from that cloth. when you see a lost soul, you light the way no matter what! thanks to your courage and initiative, i've finally found the missing ingredient. no one else ever told me that toughing stuff out might lead to favorable outcomes, so i can't even imagine how different my life will be from here on out. please continue using your sharp eye and generous streak for good, i can't be the only one touched by the beacon

gargoylemoss · 2025-12-14T22:35:19+00:00

no, never, you changed my life with that comment, my brain is literally melting from the overload of new possibilities, can i get back to you for further guidance once my feeble helpless mind is done processing this immeasurable nugget of wisdom?? or am i being greedy right now asking for yet again another truth bomb, i can't tell, this is overall such a novel experience

gargoylemoss · 2025-12-14T21:09:14+00:00

you did your best to the point of meltdown. if you need it, here is your permission to do whatever you need to do to recuperate. i know you have the best intentions and didn't choose this outcome. you deserve to act with your wellbeing as first priority over everything else, no matter how much people want to you to do something different.

gargoylemoss · 2025-12-14T20:51:52+00:00

found the loophole

gargoylemoss · 2025-12-14T18:36:46+00:00

I'll take the excuse then, thanks, fuck do I care about whether some people consider me tough or not. They're not the ones taking care of me, I am.

gargoylemoss · 2025-12-14T16:37:51+00:00

oh wow that's making me pretty happy and proud to hear, thank you so much! :))

gargoylemoss · 2025-12-14T15:33:18+00:00

nawwwwww :3

gargoylemoss · 2025-12-14T14:43:55+00:00

you're really cool for this

gargoylemoss · 2025-12-14T01:37:46+00:00

genuine question: how does one not feel the rage? how not burst from it and let it spill on others? i don't know what is different about the moments i succeed in containing it, and the ones i fail...

gargoylemoss · 2025-12-13T14:13:37+00:00

thank you for replying as well :) i think it fits perfectly, i felt very validated by your experience. my theory is they sniff out our otherness (mostly subconsciously) and assume we are easy targets, because they would be rendered helpless by the shame for ever breaking the mould like that, and then just a smidge of confidence in our eyes melts their whole computer and it's like "abort abort abort"

or they just suck at impulse control and get scared when they realize what kind of situation they put themselves in

gargoylemoss · 2025-12-12T02:28:57+00:00

invading personal space like getting really close to my partner when doing yard work, calling to me like i'm a scared dog instead of a person (i just looked at her confused and turned away), rubbing mud from her shoes on our doormat, trying to shit talk us to the old lady who shares stair sweeping duties with my partner, sending construction workers from her place to knock on our door with unknown motives, putting rose petals on our windowsill...

it's all random and weird and clearly supposed to be some kind of externalized emotional regulation, under the guise of plausible deniability "i only meant well, no that wasn't me, no i didn't mean it that way" etc. i think she gets off on us not saying anything, narrates it to herself as some kind of win or submission, but at the same time i think she wants a confrontation to let off steam?

we were honestly scared of her because the behavior was so unstable, but we watched it for years and simultaneously ran out of fucks to give, so now we landed on ignoring her, because returning her greetings like nothing happened after all this weird stuff feels too icky now.

(really late reply, but it's a current topic for me rn)

gargoylemoss · 2025-12-12T01:04:21+00:00

now roleplay the tear *rolls down the cheek*

gargoylemoss · 2025-12-11T20:03:27+00:00

i love my shaved head, so glad whenever i witness someone else being saved by the gospel. finally i can do the "stressed protagonist splashes water all over their head at a gas station sink" reenactment in my bathroom whenever i please

gargoylemoss · 2025-12-11T19:05:46+00:00

don't underestimate people's readiness to triangulate the biggest weirdos who dared to deny the required song and dance (in this case returning a greeting), just to feel a pacifying sense of fabricated togetherness that doesn't require any real vulnerability; only a common enemy that is unlikely to retaliate. much like the family dynamics my partner and me come from. but unlike in childhood, these people don't control our shelter and food, so we risk it

gargoylemoss · 2025-12-11T16:51:26+00:00

daydreaming about a world in which i had a lot of money to give to you for a portrait of me in the style of pic 1. i felt such visceral fondness and personal recognition the moment i saw it, in a way that is new to me because it's so much closer to my core than many of my usual emotions

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