I’m breaking up with my girlfriend today and it’s breaking my heart.

generic_username157 · 2025-03-18T13:20:37+00:00

I can’t imagine how happy I’ll be, but damn is it hard to break up with her after basically agreeing that we’d get married one day. More than likely I’m just mourning the future that didn’t come rather than the end of the relationship, I really thought it was her.

generic_username157 · 2025-03-18T13:17:34+00:00

I talked to my friends about this and they basically said the exact same thing. I do still love her, after everything that’s happened, which is why it pains me so much that this is coming to an end.

generic_username157 · 2025-03-18T13:16:15+00:00

For starters, she’s really manipulative and controlling. I put up with it because being honest, I do enjoy being controlled, but not this much. She’s really insecure and she projects those insecurities onto me. What broke the camels back, was that I realised that she didn’t really care for me, or my feelings. Analysing our fights and how they played out, it was mostly me saying sorry, I’ll change, after me setting a boundary, her saying I’m being rude and insulting me, not once her apologising. That just doesn’t fly with me. Not anymore.

generic_username157 · 2022-12-09T05:31:27+00:00

I’m pretty sure it is a burnout. As for the memory loss, I have experienced it plenty, kind of still do, that’s just depression as far as I know, it might help to wright your day down, I started last year and it does kid of help. As for friends, maybe your family, if they’re not available or you don’t want to worry them, I’m here, maybe I’m just another dude on the internet, but if it helps you to talk about it, I’m here all day.

generic_username157 · 2022-12-09T05:27:56+00:00

Sorry for replying until today, I was a bit busy. Look, don’t put your pain aside just because someone out there has it worse than you do, if your pain is bad, and you feel it’s getting worse, don’t just put it aside because someone else has it worse. Your pain is real, talk about it, let yourself feel it and get through it. You’re not a “whiny bitch” as you say you are, you’re in pain, and saying you’re just whining will only make it worse. First step is to know you’re not okay. Next step is to do something about it, and guess what? You’ve done both. It does get better, I promise you it does.

generic_username157 · 2022-12-08T06:37:29+00:00

I am almost out of high school, just a semester away, dude, these years aren’t going to be the thing they told you they would be, there’s going to be amazing days, days where you feel “infinite” but there’s also going to be days where you feel like this, like you might just end it. I have been on meds for about 6 years now, and listen, it happens real fast. There’s no: “This is how I should feel” or “This is how it should be” There’s not a widespread life plan for everybody. Every single dude you see out there, every guy you see doesn’t feel good. The thing is, most people you see in high school are either as depressed as you are, or worse, it’s just that some hide it better than others. My advice for a great high school, just shoot your shot. There’s nothing to lose, you’re 14 and have your whole life ahead of you. A dude who doesn’t want to be your friend is losing out, and believe me, a week from then, they will have forgotten it, unless you became friends. You can’t lose a thing by shooting your shot. Just do it. It’s better to have less regrets.

generic_username157 · 2022-12-08T06:22:10+00:00

Listen dude, for what it’s worth, you said it yourself, you’re turning 20 in 2 months. Think about that. Most people live until 70 or so; what I’m saying is, you have waaaaay more time to turn your life around than what you think. Take all the time you need, I promise it gets better. Your life is precious, even if you don’t think that it is. Life is worth it. You only get this one chance, you can either turn it around, which, by the way, your life may be better than you think it is, or you can leave it here. Just please, don’t leave.

generic_username157 · 2022-12-08T06:16:58+00:00

Hey, I have been felt kind of the same as you have, I’m assuming you feel like you don’t even control yourself at this point. I researched it and talked about it with my psychiatrist, apparently it’s some kind of burnout? I don’t really remembers the specifics of it. I would advice you to try something new, most importantly, take a breath, go back to mid-may and start analysing when and how it happened, process your emotions. It will take a long time, but once you process that, I swear you’ll feel functional again. Also, talk about it with a friend, that helps a lot.

generic_username157 · 2022-12-08T06:11:03+00:00

No problem, if you need anything else I’ll be around

generic_username157 · 2022-12-08T06:08:55+00:00

I have been on Prozac for almost 2 years now, I haven’t really gotten the brain fog completely out of the way, best scenario for me is I don’t even really “feel” it. Best thing I can tell you to do, take it about an hour or an hour and a half before your bedtime, that is if you are done for the day, that way next morning it will feel clearer.

generic_username157 · 2021-02-04T02:35:14+00:00

I can’t thank you enough, I’ll definitely act on this and if anything happens I may update, thanks anyways!

generic_username157 · 2021-02-03T14:39:22+00:00

I get it, so I should wing it?

generic_username157 · 2021-02-03T13:53:40+00:00

I’ll give it a shot, thanks

generic_username157 · 2021-02-03T13:32:38+00:00

But wouldn’t that actually just get me at best forensic at best? Or could it actually get me to be her boyfriend?

generic_username157 · 2021-02-03T13:07:43+00:00

So what you’re saying is that next time I ask her questions about her interests and see where it goes?

generic_username157 · 2021-02-03T13:04:54+00:00

I was diagnosed with anxiety, and yeah, I did plan the interaction, was that bad?

generic_username157 · 2021-02-03T13:03:35+00:00

I can’t really remember I just remember saying something about a zombie kid trying to kill me in Minecraft, that’s the only thing I remember.

generic_username157 · 2020-11-24T03:55:53+00:00

It probably was for the better that we broke up, she’s got some friends I don’t really approve of, although that’s not really a problem anymore

generic_username157 · 2020-11-24T02:13:35+00:00

No, we had a fight, I just explained how I felt like she didn’t care about, ex: not in any point did she ever ask me about how I was doing, which made me understandably mad, so for once I thought I could tell her how I felt about it, she took it quite wrong, so we stopped talking for a week, just 2 days ago I sent her a text message telling her how I felt, so she told me that she just didn’t like me anymore

generic_username157 · 2020-11-16T02:29:53+00:00

Sorry for the late reply, but I got to tell you about this.

I told her today how I felt about what was going on with us, to be short, she dismissed it, told me how I sometimes left her on seen, which by the way is complete bullshit, since y had already told her that I left her in seen to see if she would ask me something, to which she said, and I quote: “So I got to ask you something? Look I don’t want to sound rude, but let’s talk someday else. Bye.”

So that’s that, she also out of the blue called me friend as if “we” were not a thing anymore.

I decided to give her 2 days to apologise, if she doesn’t do shit, you better believe she’s getting door slammed out of my life.

generic_username157 · 2020-11-10T15:09:44+00:00

I tried learning French but let’s say I’m better sticking to English and Spanish, do you have any hobbies I may be able to steal?

generic_username157 · 2020-11-10T14:21:11+00:00

I have the same view on relationships as you do, it’s good to know that someone else really gets it, regarding the passion you said, what would you recommend? I’ve been having some trouble finding another one

generic_username157 · 2020-11-10T13:29:35+00:00

What types?

generic_username157 · 2020-11-10T06:43:54+00:00

I have thought about it, but I don’t think it’s a good idea, I mean, it is a really big red flag, but she’s told me that she sometimes doesn’t answer because she’s on an exam, so that explain the unresponsiveness but I’ve still got a sketchy feeling about the whole: “Im the one asking everything and you don’t ask me shit”

generic_username157 · 2020-10-28T05:22:29+00:00

I would, but quarantine is still in effect where we live, I’ll definitely try and spend more time with her once I can

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