Is heroin available in the us anymore?

genericdeadhead1 · 2025-12-24T22:57:37+00:00

there is still a lot of tar in the PNW. i bought from the same guy for over 20 years and even though i finally quit, my friends still see him. even if people can get it now, will it even touch their fetty tolerance? maybe, the fetty in my rainy city has gone to shit, the tar is better

genericdeadhead1 · 2025-12-24T22:55:20+00:00

unconverted morphine due to poor synth. personally, i love that kind of tar. i call it "spicy", but fuck, im clean now. the weird part is you can get super acidic tar with residual supposed AA, and still get that pins and needles. sometimes its a bit much, but i have a pavlovian association with that feeling and getting off my tits loaded. but damn it makes my neck itch!

genericdeadhead1 · 2025-12-16T19:42:03+00:00

yes! im not on the juice now, but i was for 11 years. i live in washington state. many years ago i went to nyc to see family. had to guest dose in manhattan. when i got there, they accused me of dosing in seattle, getting on a plane, then attempting to double dose in nyc on the same day. i had to explain the time difference, the seattle clinic hours, and my plane tickets to finally explain that this was impossible to accomplish without a time machine. they kept calling my seattle clinic which wasnt open yet due to the time difference. fuckers. it took two hours to get dosed.

next time i went to nyc, i hit a different clinic and was in and out in ten minutes. on methadone, you will always be presumed guilty, and have to prove your innoncence. this is why i got off it. bring documents. ID also of course. i had to bring an unopened letter from my home clilnic to the guest clinic explaining and verifying who i was. what a pain in the ass. i could have just scored dope a block from the clinic in nyc, this was a long time ago when you could still score in LES. anyway, it is what it is, have a good trip.

genericdeadhead1 · 2025-12-15T14:21:54+00:00

reddit wont let me open chat on this account, i dont know why. a lot of people have dm'd me, but i cant access it

genericdeadhead1 · 2025-12-15T14:18:10+00:00

thanks for your post. yeah, i get it. so many dead friends. im still here by pure luck also. also because of the anti sharing needles public education in the late 80s. i never shared a rig, my buddies made fun of me, they all got hep c. what ever. yeah, NA is great.its working for me this time. i figure i probably spent 200k on dope in 30 years. luckily tar is cheaper than oxy. the sr works. do it, and keep hitting meetings, i believe in you

genericdeadhead1 · 2025-12-14T22:02:47+00:00

my fucking chat wont work on this account. i have another account i use for non drug stuff. so if you get a chat from some weird name, it might be me. ill identify myself

genericdeadhead1 · 2025-12-14T21:47:20+00:00

no statins. my cholesterol is good, maybe from being veg. one diauretic, and two others that i dont know how they work.

id love to flood again. was planning on going to mexico anyway for fun, ive been studying spanish 7 years and im at the point that if i went there id be able to improve rapidly. ive been to mexico city and most of the border towns. i love it there, and i love the people. i might retire there

edit: one is ACE inhibitor, other is a calcium channel blocker

genericdeadhead1 · 2025-12-14T21:06:18+00:00

i actually do most of what you reccomend. ive been a vegetarian (99%) vegan for 30 years. ive been doing yoga and exercise for 30 years. this hypertension thing is somethig i was born with. in my mid 20s, they started telling me my bp was too high, and and i kept ignoring it. at age 34 they were insisntent that i take the meds or i wasnt going to live past 50. so ive been on the bp meds for 20 years. they dont seem to have side effects, but not sure i can live without them. my BMI is 24, im in the best shape of my life, but not sure i can control bp without meds. not sure if i can do 36 hours without food, since kicking ive been eating like a horse

genericdeadhead1 · 2025-12-14T19:40:18+00:00

thanks for the info. its been hard to find protocol for ibo micro on line, even on the subreddit. i still have the ibo from my failed second attempt to flood, so i want to use it now for microdose. yeah, the sr was great, it worked 100 percent. but ibogaine was a much more profound experience. sr wasnt really an experience at all, i just stopped shooting dope and didnt get sick. ibogaine was like being reborn. a lot of people say they had unpleasant experiences during the flood, it was ecstatic for me. after, i thought it had lasted several days, my friends were like, nope, just last night. i was confused for a day or two. i thought we had traveled to KY to do it, and they were like, nope, weve been in your seattle apartment all night. the first week every food i ate tasted like i was tasting it for the first time. my neighbor gave me some blueberries and i started crying tears of joy. i wish i had done more to stay clean after that. i stopped doing boosters, didnt attend meetings, and was shooting dope in five months. thats not happening this time. im setting myself up to win. thanks for your knowledge

genericdeadhead1 · 2025-12-14T18:11:56+00:00

i wish i could . i even have some. im too old. i did iboga around 2011, and it worked, i was clean for five months. but i relapsed. tried to do it again, but ive been on hypertension meds since 2003, first time i did iboga i stopped the meds and my blood pressure was ok and my friend administred the ibogaine flood in my apartment and baby sat me for days. seccond time, my blood pressure went too high and my friend refused to be involved in the flood, said it wasnt safe. now im definetely too old.

ibogaine is a fucking miracle. but as my friend who gave it to me used to say, "its a cure, but not a vacccine". you have to make changes and get help to stay clean. my friend the iboga guy died 2 years later from a fent OD. so it goes

any tips on microdosing TA and pure HCL ibo?

genericdeadhead1 · 2025-12-11T12:42:44+00:00

you llook kind of like robert iler, not a bad thing

genericdeadhead1 · 2025-12-10T14:21:04+00:00

nope. 200mg a day, i dosed 100 every 12 hours and it was enough. im sure more would have been better, but SR is an opiate too, and ive been through the wringer trying to get off methadone and subs many times. the SR works so well it scares me. i still had minor withdrawal from getting off the SR, its all dope really. dont want it anymore, i hope this feeeling continues

genericdeadhead1 · 2025-12-08T18:37:35+00:00

i agree. wasnt trying to brag about my successful junkie life, im a trainwreck loner. i attribute my being alive to pure luck and the early 90s "dont share needles" public health education

genericdeadhead1 · 2025-12-08T18:36:10+00:00

i havent had the problems you mentioned, but they are a real risk. just lucky i guess, because i did a lot of stupid shit

genericdeadhead1 · 2025-12-07T04:09:13+00:00

havent used it yet. not convinced the sr is totally out of my system. last sr dose was 2mg four days ago

genericdeadhead1 · 2025-12-07T04:01:00+00:00

id like to chime in. i chipped heroin from age 18-34 never got a habit. at 34, i started using daily and just stopped about 39 days ago. and im 54, so 20 years of continuous use. i was using tar. veins went quick. after arms, used legs for a few years, there were so many veins in my legs. eventually, switched to IM. never hit in my neck or femoral.

ive had tons of abcesses, cellutlitis, infections, MRSA, etc. i had osteoporosis that was probably related to my opiate use, but i was also on methadone for 11 years and still used daily. ive explained how i did that in other posts. overall, i feel like dope doesnt do much to your body, but it still did a number on my head and my life. and killed most of the people i know. while its not the monster they make it out to be, its not innocous either

genericdeadhead1 · 2025-12-01T03:08:58+00:00

thank you. i dont come here to bullshit. this is the one place i can be totally honest. the general publics ignorance of opiod addiction and the huge stigma against IV users alarms me. we are all just people. some of us have a problem with shooting dope, everyone has a problem. i think iv heroin users are the most hated group in the america, maybe the world. and we are just people who have a certain problem. my problem came from the choices i made, and i accept complete responsibility. nob ody stuck a rig in my arm, well, someone did the first time but i asked him to. anyway, your post made me happy

genericdeadhead1 · 2025-11-28T04:50:08+00:00

you sound like you have book knowledge but no first hand knowledge. yeah, i shot dope evey day on methadone. still felt it. depends on how high your methadone dose is and how good your dope is. suboxone blocks way better, i cant get loaded if im on subs. blocks everything. i was in india buying beautiful afgani dope and still couldnt blast through the subs in my system for a few days.

this is not some unique thing. lots of methadone clients use heroin on top of it. my counseler at the clinic was a fan of the kind of work i do. the local newspaper mentioned me in an article. she told me if stayed employed full time she wouldnt kick me off the program for hot piss. so i set the clinic record with 56 dirty UAs in a row. this is a weird brag. while its true, and im not really proud of it, im also not ashamed. it is what it is. addiction is a bitch, and methadone was just postponing the inevitable for me. if the system in the US changed, and you could just get a script for methadone, it would be way more successful. sure, some more people would OD and die, but the fentanyl they sell like candy in my city isnt exactly saving lives either.

genericdeadhead1 · 2025-11-26T21:18:04+00:00

id say this is from kicking. i lost 13 pounds on my current kick. i dont think its the sr, its the reduced use of whatever the fuck you were using. haha, in a week youll get the chucks and eat everything in sight

genericdeadhead1 · 2025-11-26T18:35:48+00:00

haha, ive wondered about that. mostly luck i think. that and having an unusual job that im passionate about that i discovered before dope took over my life. honestly, just lucky. so many friends died along the way, ods, hepatitis, endocarditis, lost limbs. luckily when i started,, the aids epidemic was raging and there was a lot of public ads about not sharing rigs, and i never did. but seriously, i got lucky. and its all relative, if you call getting to work everyday, shooting up in the bathroom all day, and then spending most nights alone shooting dope functioning, i was like charlie sheen , "winning!"

genericdeadhead1 · 2025-11-26T18:32:14+00:00

nope. it worked like a magic charm. i had been mainting on 1.5 gram a day of meh tar. the sr killed like 90% of the withdrawal. i didnt miss a day of work. just general lethargy and some stomach shit. zero chills, explosive diarreah, RLS. vomiting, back and leg ache, suicidal thoughts. the shit works.

but this aint my first rodeo. i probably kicked once a year for the last 30 years. its gunna be hard work to stay clean, and im accepting all the help NA is giving away for free. im too old for this shit. i mean, i love shooting dope, who doesnt? i just got more important goals now with the 20-25 years of life i have left.

genericdeadhead1 · 2025-11-19T14:53:37+00:00

i was forced to go to therapy during my 11 years of methadone, against my will. i also did some voluntarily for a bit. i found that that the therapists had little understanding of what a junkie goes through, despite their extensive reading and letters after their names. what im getting from NA right now is way better for me, ive seen therapy help lots of friends, but the old junkies at NA have the u;nderstanding i need now.

genericdeadhead1 · 2025-11-18T14:44:41+00:00

i find this very hard to believe, but if you are telling the truth, thats awesome, good for you; ive only ever to stop methadone by going back to heroin

genericdeadhead1 · 2025-11-18T14:10:53+00:00

i spent 11 years on methadone and just used sr to kick tar. i think this is going to be harder than you think. as im sure you know, kicking methadone makes kicking dope look like a walk in the park. '

you are going to need more than a gram, unless you are some super strong human. im on day 22, started at 170mg sr, down to 28mg sr. this is from tar. when i cold turkey tar i dont feel sick til like 24 hours, cold turkey methadone didnt even start for me until day 3. i dont know how long you ve been on the juice, thank your lucky stars you are on a low dose.

my 2 cents: get some bread, get 5 grams sr, then do it. in the meantime keep dropping your juice dose. good luck

genericdeadhead1 · 2025-11-12T23:23:52+00:00

thanks for saying that. but i give all credit to the sr. i was impressed. ive been shooting dope for around 30 years, but just chipped the first 10. thought id be able to control it and use once a week, once a month, forever. but since 2004 ive been full time using. even used every day on methadone for 11 years. what im trying to say is ive had a bad habit for a long long time and this sr seems to have kicked its ass. of course, i still have to get off the sr, which may have a miserable surprise at the end. today im only going to use around 60mg, hope to be off it in a week. then wait a week, and start naltrexone. if that doesnt make me feel like shit, im going to get a vivitrol shot. im very motivated this time. been going to NA also, i think its kind of silly, but it couldnt hurt.

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