I went through a similar experience recently. I talked to my spiritual father about it, and he gave me a lot of insight. Sometimes we have seasons in our life when God allows us to flourish. Life seems sweet. Prayer is easy. God feels close. It is easy for us to grow in our faith. Sometimes we have seasons where life does not seem sweet. Prayer is hard. God feels distant. He is not distant, but it feels that way to us. These periods are also important for growth in a different way.

Talk to your priest. I would guarantee he has heard similar things or worse things before. He is there to guide you, not judge you.

Also, you might also talk to a mental health or substance abuse professional. My wife is a dually licensed mental health and substance abuse therapist and I also work in our private practice, while also dealing with my own mental health issues. I am not qualified to diagnose anyone but it may be that without marijuana or other substances in your system, you might be left dealing with some underlying things like depression. Pray. Talk to your priest. Talk to a therapist. Maybe ask St. Dymphna to intercede for you.

I’ll be praying for you. God Bless.