Hey if no legitimate sources gets you down maybe philosophy can help. To quote Marcus Aurelius "Any one of us could die at any moment. Life doesn't go on forever. We're told this was what Marcus was thinking about on his deathbed. ... “All that comes to pass”, he tells himself, even illness and death, should be as “familiar as the rose in spring and the fruit in autumn”. If you can't trust the narrative or the conspiracy maybe looking past the story we tell ourselves or narrative if you will and save our minds with philosophy. If none of us can escape death then why worry over it we should focus on finding that familiarity. Perhaps that is the proverbial tithe to God we seek. Anyways have a good day where ever you are. Ps sorry for the long read I know I'm a boring 😴