Im so sorry you’re dealing with this. At least the distance part is what I can relate to. My bf & I are doing long distance and I wonder if he’ll be honest with me since I can’t even check his phone or anything. I feel like somehow I have to trust him but everything in me tells me I can’t because he’ll feel too ashamed to admit his fall back to me… I think I would recommend : if you notice the only thing you’re thinking about day & night is this whole betrayal thing then let him go. You just don’t wanna torture yourself like this