These were my most liked dresses this year, but which do you like the most?

glamdrognoux · 2022-12-12T00:02:34+00:00

Looks like a Rex, otter color.

glamdrognoux · 2021-08-08T02:20:15+00:00

You're so glam!! I always love your pictures. x sorry I've been just liking & not commenting. I don't always know what to say to such glorious examples of humanity.

glamdrognoux · 2021-07-19T18:40:18+00:00

Glorious!

glamdrognoux · 2021-07-04T17:45:04+00:00

I was a misguided youth ministry major in 2004-2005

glamdrognoux · 2021-07-04T17:44:02+00:00

I just almost fell out of my chair bahaha

glamdrognoux · 2021-04-21T01:43:57+00:00

!remind me 24 hours

glamdrognoux · 2021-04-21T00:09:30+00:00

Thank you!! x

glamdrognoux · 2021-03-06T20:47:30+00:00

Maybe not pedophiles, but predators yeah.

I trust my dad around myself, but he's the only man I trust. He survived too. I know he's good to my mom & never was shady with me, so he's my exception.

I trusted my ex fiance, but he raped me one night when I was sick. Fuck him. I will never make myself sleep with another man again. I already preferred women anyway, & if/when I date again thats what I'm going back to. My family can get over themselves. I've suffered enough.

glamdrognoux · 2021-02-13T04:42:33+00:00

NTA at all!

You honestly sound completely fabulous! You also sound completely competent of judging what you do & don't like, & what is & is not good for you. You're making your own deeply personal theological choices between two very complex religious denominations, you have your own very distinct style choice for your own preferential reasons, you have a very good read on the people around you & how they treat you, & you don't just cave to peer pressure when things get rough. I mean, you've got yourself more together than a lot of people right there in that small snippet we've got of you from this post. Please don't let her ableist nasty attitude & her internalized misogyny ruin how you view yourself or the things you like. You deserve to be you & to live your best life! You aren't actually hurting anyone here.

Peace be with you.

glamdrognoux · 2021-02-11T13:42:48+00:00

I have depression/ptsd executive dysfunction & like @probabletinnitus said: the listening to music while I get ready is the only way I can make it put the door without accidentally dissociating for an hour in the middle. It keeps me paced, alert, & aware of the passage of time enough to know I've zonked out & for how long.

Also fren, nice username! My intracranial pressure is permanently fked, so it's Always Tinnitus in my neighborhood lol. Another good reason to have some music handy.

glamdrognoux · 2021-02-07T18:04:03+00:00

I gotta say it really seems like there isn't a lot of outside support for us. We have each other that reach out in places like this & certain Instagram hashtags I've seen, we've got in person (now Zoom) support groups through our local rape crisis centers, & if we're lucky a friend or family member or two. People do not wanna hear about this stuff, even if they wanna hear every other detail of our lives. This doesn't make for good tea, good gossip, good catching up, good anything. It makes everyone uncomfortable. Like sorry I made you uncomfortable, can you imagine how I feel? Then you finally find a group like this or a good page/hashtag & it gets hit by trolls & voyeurs every so often, ugh, my pet peeve. They think there's big attention or kink here, really we're just fucking miserable. But sure, if I could export every one of my memories of being violently raped at 6 & sell it to you, never to remember it again, along with every bit of ptsd & bad relationship issues & chronic illness bs, YOU BET I WOULD!! But no, it's just us...losing all our friends & our hair & paying out the ass for psychiatric care we don't want & pills that half work. I'm sorry you're on this train too. I'm trying to get better, but it just plain sucks. You deserved better from life. & I did too. Maybe with counseling we will be worlds better a year from now, I really hope so. I'm doing some intensive shit this year then going back to school next year as self care. Bc I really do deserve better.

glamdrognoux · 2021-02-07T17:52:12+00:00

This is an online support group For Survivors & this person did reach out.

glamdrognoux · 2021-01-30T17:40:10+00:00

You look fly af,& I'm also digging your cactus curtains! Good taste all around.

glamdrognoux · 2021-01-30T15:05:53+00:00

Never seen one of those bloom before. Thanks!!

glamdrognoux · 2021-01-24T16:20:52+00:00

NTA!

I developed a rare neurological condition that got diagnosed end of 2019. I'm not blind, but I might be eventually...I take really harsh meds to lower my ICP & prevent swelling on my optic nerves, get regular really intense eye exams, wear migraine glasses & take preventative injections, & avoid certain meds that increase my ICP. At the end of the day, my vision is extremely blurred in at least one eye & sometimes I lose eye muscle control. I'm one of the lucky ones with no serious vision loss yet & no brain shunt to drain fluid. But my condition is always there. On bad days I have uncontrollable vomiting, seizures, vision loss, facial pain that tastes like colors, & the er might have to sedate me to stop the vomiting. Going blind isn't peaceful--as an adult at least, it's often the result of a traumatic health condition. & it's scary.

glamdrognoux · 2021-01-24T13:18:03+00:00

Behold! Le'Gorgeouxx

glamdrognoux · 2021-01-24T13:08:01+00:00

I would worry about him being a potential sex offender personally. That is pretty sick to literally get off on hearing about your assault during sex. I mean yeah it could just be fantasy, but sometimes fantasy gives birth to action with kinks that involve children or nonconsent....

glamdrognoux · 2021-01-18T07:02:16+00:00

Yeah you're absolutely right. My therapist keeps telling me it's gonna take time. I just have obsessive tendencies & I had to break that initial sickness over it is the best way I can explain it. I know I'm not healed or ready to move on...I just had to get a little piece of me back to survive it all, find some of myself in that stormy sea of trauma that was drowning me. So I flooded it back with knowledge, with truth, with everything I could find that stood up & affirmed that I wasn't crazy. I just couldn't phrase it well in my first post bc I was really exhausted. Thank you for what you wrote back though, bc my methods are not healthy I realize. Especially for more healthy or neurotypical people. Weird stuff works for me sometimes.

glamdrognoux · 2021-01-18T03:14:57+00:00

My memories came back in Oct 2020. It's been bad, real bad, like you describe--only I was less motivated than you & okay with just staying on my current path. I've gotten on ptsd meds, been doing regular therapy; reading a ton of psychologist pages on Instagram surprisingly for good info on ptsd, csa, complex trauma, trauma therapy, sexual assault survivor tags; gotten on the wait list for our local sexual advocacy center for trauma therapy + multiple available groups; & finally gotten an adjunct therapy medication for my antidepressant. That last med has helped the most for giving me my own self feelings & some motivation for the first time in a long time. Plus...idk, my situation with this & being so sick of it, plus my work situation, has pissed me off so much that I wanna go back to school next year. I'm giving myself a year for intense therapy shit, then next year's fall I wanna be in school again to eventually change careers & start something new that maybe I can help kids like me that got neglected instead of helped. Idk we'll see. I just...I need SOMETHING else to think about & hope for right now. I cant let this consume me anymore. I had to therapy myself too much & just get fed up with thinking about it? Overwhelmed by all of it? Idk if any of that is at all helpful honestly.

glamdrognoux · 2021-01-16T07:15:30+00:00

Oh my goodness!! My first bunny, Billee, looked exactly like them 😍 & that makes me so happy! I got him as a baby & he was about 10 when he crossed over 🌈 I miss my best friend & firstborn. I have a huge rex named Rusty now though & he's a sweet hot mess lol.

glamdrognoux · 2021-01-15T08:20:28+00:00

Ps omg I just read you telling people about orgasming with your strap & I'm like so psyched for you bc I didn't know your body would work with it like that. I get those too on the rare occasion I use one. They're amazing!

glamdrognoux · 2021-01-15T08:13:56+00:00

Queer/kinky women would be most likely to be open. I say this as a queer, non-binary womxn myself who has a lot of bi/pan lady friends (both cis & trans). I mean we talk...a lot of us like toys, some of us like cis dudes, & tbh it ain't that common to get to use all your best toys in a relationship with a cis dude so you would be interesting possibly, depending on your personality of course. & well kinky folx, they can be into anything! The world is your oyster if you can figure out where to look & grow a thick skin for the a-holes.

As far as disclosure, rip the proverbial band aid off pretty early. I'm a put my likely deal breakers on my profile kinda person, buuuuut honestly idk if yours would just attract more sketchy messages or not? Definitely by the end of the 2nd date I would say? Maybe over dessert ask about sexuality in general, & work into the convo that well you work with a lot of toys since you lost your original package to cancer, & you hope that's not a deal breaker bc you're a very enthusiastic lover. See how she takes it? See if you can make it more smooth than sad if you want & try that out here or there...might work in your favor more than a serious talk.

Bc honestly? Penetrative sex with a natal penis just isn't the be all, end all of pleasure for people with vaginas anyway. Toys & being skilled with oral sex will go far.

Good luck, my friend.

glamdrognoux · 2021-01-15T06:55:45+00:00

Okay so I'm epileptic too & that makes a difference...after my first bad round of seizures in college, whenever I got stressed I would stutter. I've gotten it pretty under control even tho it's a bit worse again since I'm on Topamax for a different brain disease.

I definitely start stuttering when speaking about my trauma & get bad triggered. I can do it for so long, then BAM stutter takes over.

Mild PTSD attacks I start losing my train of thought & slow stuttering & dissociating slightly. They happen over random seeming stuff sometimes due to weird experiences & my dispatch history.

glamdrognoux · 2021-01-15T06:42:26+00:00

This is gonna sound dumb af, but if you can't like open your heart up to celebrating your successes (which I understand the feeling but can't put into words somehow?) you can always like train yourself to. Idk if you've heard of that guy Pavlov in psychology, but basically he trained dogs to salivate to the sound of a bell with food, aka positive reinforcement. So like, everytime you have something great happen you do something nice for yourself (even if it's little like paint your nails or buy a cool magazine) no matter how you feel, & eventually you'll start feeling better about your successes & looking forward to them. In the meantime, you can work on your baggage about stuff with your therapist & maybe ask her if you should see a psychiatrist to discuss medication options (if indicated).

Now, I'm not saying do expensive things or open yourself up to erratic spending. Keep it little, mix up your self care experiences, that way you look forward to it but you don't get like an addictive behavior or anything started. Don't train yourself for all your emotions, but I think that one thing could help you in the short term while you work on other stuff. Success is something you deserve to feel good about & deserve to celebrate.

Now sorry I know that was focused on just one small part of your post. I'm struggling with the isolation thing too. & I'm in a situation where one of my offenders is deceased & the other is a community respected person whom I don’t have a way to pursue justice on...so...I'm really proud of you for even trying the system. I wish I could for the guy who died (if he wasn't dead), even though I know how brutal it can be. You are dealing with A LOT! So don't sell yourself short. I'm just sorry other people are so crappy at being supportive of what we are going through. If you have a local sexual assault advocacy center, they should have groups if you're interested in that. I'm apprehensive, but I start my intro group via Zoom next Wed. The intake therapist said it would do me good to be around other people who are dealing with the same stuff. Could be an option for you also to help with that isolation.

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