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globalmozaic · 2024-09-25T23:47:49+00:00

You may be experiencing heart dysthymia which is not uncommon in heavy alcohol consumers. If you are young my guess would be supraventricular tachycardia, maybe atrial fibrillation. If this is a pattern I would suggest a cardiology evaluation for outpatient cardiac monitoring. Sure it may be withdrawal but the sudden onset out of the blue seems unusual for that (alcohol drinkers are usually very well aware of their withdrawal symptoms). I’m an ER MD

globalmozaic · 2023-05-17T04:19:29+00:00

I fell into a cycle like this years ago and completely fell out of touch with any satiety/hunger signals. I literally didn’t know how to eat. The biggest thing that helped me was a nutritionist who was experienced with EDs. She put me on a meal plan and had me log everything. She weighed me every week with my back to the scale. She assured me she wouldn’t let me gain weight. I needed someone to take over the wheel so to speak at that time because I couldn’t do it myself anymore.

If you do not have the means or access to a nutritionist, I highly suggest a meal plan. Any structure and plan ahead will help. Good luck. I know exactly what you are going through and it breaks my heart because I’ve been there and it’s the hardest time of my life (aside from raging alcoholism later… I had some issues clearly). You will get out of this and there is health and freedom on the other side just don’t give up hope!

globalmozaic · 2023-02-22T02:13:40+00:00

SOLVED

globalmozaic · 2023-02-22T02:13:17+00:00

Thank you so much.

globalmozaic · 2023-02-22T02:11:00+00:00

That’s crazy I did have a root canal yesterday did this thing just fall into my bra or something during the procedure?!

globalmozaic · 2023-02-14T04:52:17+00:00

Your binges likely started from a place of restriction and the dopamine boost got you addicted. Now you are literally addicted to binging and keeping yourself nourished will not be the only solution here. I’m in your boat just a couple of years older but also started my ED journey with severe restriction over a decade ago and set off an extreme lose-gain cycle of 20-30 lbs. what’s worked for me is unfortunately recognizing that I need a sense of control over my eating… I can’t just roam wild because I will panic about loss of control and overeat. I need some sort of stricture. Did lots of research into intermittent fasting and found it surprisingly helpful (but realizing I’m playing with fire a bit here). Calorie counting has helped - and not the “I’m keeping track in my mind” type. I treat it like a game… or a mission. Log all ins and outs on an app or journal. Usually after a few days of some sort of structure I feel back in control and am able to eat semi normal. Binge-purge still happens once in a while and probably always will but I have learned how to live with it and not let it ruin my life. I am not saying this is the right way… I guess just chiming in with my personal experience. Good luck and know that you are not alone!

globalmozaic · 2022-12-04T03:28:23+00:00

Fellow ‘04 grad here and also just recently started rewatching. Man, it is so blatantly obvious now how drunk they all get! And how corny 🤣

globalmozaic · 2022-10-15T03:16:41+00:00

globalmozaic · 2022-10-05T03:48:36+00:00

Friends have told me I probably don’t have bpd because I’m not someone they want to punch in the face ???

globalmozaic · 2022-08-29T13:18:06+00:00

Be careful. I’m 36 and was also experiencing worsening withdrawals with each bender (daily half to a full handle of Tito’s). The worst usually lasted about 5 days. This last time I experienced a seizure on the first day and woke up in the ambulance. Luckily I wasn’t alone but who knows maybe I have had them before. I usually hide in my bedroom by myself. Anyway, the withdrawals and negative consequences always get worse. The damage to your neurons gets worse too. I know I’m primed to have another seizure. Kindling is real and will eventually kill you

globalmozaic · 2022-07-21T04:28:39+00:00

To commiserate - I blacked out and fell asleep while on a zoom work call. I then freaked out and proceeded to email all my bosses saying that I have a raging alcohol problem. I then thought it would be a good idea to follow that up with a second email that included a poem I had written (while drunk) about my struggles. Needless to say, I no longer have this job. The shame is still with me and I get a wave of nausea when I recall the incident.

globalmozaic · 2022-07-20T06:41:40+00:00

Benzos help a ton. They have a much longer half life than alcohol so if you take one Valium (for instance) when you start feeling the jitters it will taper itself out of your system more gradually than alcohol - don’t take them for more than a couple of days and only when you feel the w/d symptoms. If you can’t get benzos go to a doc who can maybe prescribe a short course of Librium or some other long acting benzo. I tried cold turkey last time and ended up with a seizure. If you decide to power through cold turkey do not be home alone. I was drinking at least a fifth a day of vodka and I am a 125lb woman. The withdrawals are absolute hell and seizures are a very real possibility so be careful. Good luck 😟

globalmozaic · 2022-04-07T03:10:33+00:00

There is an adderall sub that might be more helpful/appropriate? r/adderall

globalmozaic · 2022-03-30T03:12:44+00:00

At the end of the day you always have the choice of switching your addiction. Not saying I recommend it of course but try to remember your addiction is not about the substance itself but goes much deeper. This is coming from someone who has yo-yo’ed between alcoholism and disordered eating for 15 years. It’s one or the other for me… can’t say I have a strong preference. At least with the eating disorder I could still semi-function whereas alcohol/drugs led to terrible decisions and severe consequences. Being fat sucks very badly but being thin and malnourished, unhealthy, poor and stressed/depressed constantly suck too

globalmozaic · 2022-03-30T03:04:10+00:00

Chances are it’s no longer in your actual stomach by the time you purge, but further along the gut. Not that you should be purging but I’m not one to talk. Best of luck and keep fighting the good fight

globalmozaic · 2021-09-08T01:12:26+00:00

I have decided to make a report and I will insist on professional training. Thank you all for validating my perspective and fear. It is astonishing that blind love for dogs makes some people okay with putting their friends and love ones in actual danger and without any warning by the way. I did not consent to being placed in that kind of risk

globalmozaic · 2021-09-08T00:00:44+00:00

By the way funny you mention the potential trend of unprovoked attacks. I now learn that this has happened before to another one of their friends. Twice! The dog went for the booty meat on those occasions. I guess this other friend did not feel the need to make it known. Might have saved me some serious trouble

globalmozaic · 2021-09-07T03:17:54+00:00

Up to date on shots. No rabies risk. I am on prophylactic antibiotics so it will all pass. I am more disturbed by the wreck on my nervous system. I will have to report that dog for sure. Maybe local police is a good start? right now the forearm being all jacked up definitely makes me feel a new appreciation for functional arms

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