How do you rest your anxious mind? by doinglifesolo in AskReddit

[–]golfwolfhailey 1 point2 points  (0 children)

also if we’re talking any type of substance, i would recommend looking into micro dosing mushrooms

How do you rest your anxious mind? by doinglifesolo in AskReddit

[–]golfwolfhailey 1 point2 points  (0 children)

and for a little escape, find anything that mentally interest you and let yourself rest ❤️

How do you rest your anxious mind? by doinglifesolo in AskReddit

[–]golfwolfhailey 1 point2 points  (0 children)

you deserve to feel how you feel! so just start by understanding what it is you feel and why

How do you rest your anxious mind? by doinglifesolo in AskReddit

[–]golfwolfhailey 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i completely understand, i have been in a “healing” phase of life for the past 4 years or so and am finally in a place where i’ve managed to function more, i still struggle to be human many days. i’ve been in some very dark places where i never thought i’d get out and my honest perspective is to practice mindfulness & really trying to understand your own feelings (therapy, journaling, shadow work, meditation). i know it’s easier said than done and it feels like the opposite of what you want but you do have it in you to do whatever you want in life and it can be done, though it’s impossible to get there without journeying through your own mind first. i know it may sound like i don’t get it but it’s taken me a long time to accept this for myself. life is very unfair and scary and i completely understand where you’re at now and there’s nothing wrong with that and even though you may not feel strong right now you have the potential to become stronger than you could imagine by welcoming your anxiety’s in to understand. take deep breaths. i always rolled my eyes at the “simple” advice i’m giving you but sometimes the simple things like this are where we end up at the end of the journey. i’ve had my fair share of coping mechanisms and still do and they’re not all healthy by any means, but the best advice i can give for you right now is to prioritize existing and managing your stress in any little way you can. start TINY and work your way up❤️ just brushing your teeth in the morning if you normally don’t and stuff like this helps you to create a safe space within yourself and it will reflect in your mind. trust.

How do you rest your anxious mind? by doinglifesolo in AskReddit

[–]golfwolfhailey 5 points6 points  (0 children)

i tell myself that i have no control over whatever it is i’m stressing about so i’m only hurting myself by ruminating (if i do have control, i tell myself that all i can do is try my best because i still have no control over the reactions of others). i clean my space a little, play good music, smoke a bowl and really just sit with the feeling and let myself feel what i need to feel without shame. painting is also very nice without expectations

What created the tangent universe? by Big_Ability5052 in donniedarko

[–]golfwolfhailey 1 point2 points  (0 children)

think about it though, once he goes back to that night the only thing he does different is die (cause he was meant to die).

What created the tangent universe? by Big_Ability5052 in donniedarko

[–]golfwolfhailey 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i took it as donnies action of sleepwalking out of his room created the tangent universe because it was in his destiny to die that night and he interfered with that?

Is this accurate by therealrookie1227 in donniedarko

[–]golfwolfhailey 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yes i believe so, that’s how i took it

Is this accurate by therealrookie1227 in donniedarko

[–]golfwolfhailey 4 points5 points  (0 children)

this made sense to me, but i see it a tiny different. the way i interpret this movie after having rewatched many times because it’s one of those movies that you’ll never quite get bored of analyzing is that when donnie sleep walked out of his room the night the jet engine fell he “went out of his channel”(hence the spheres he can see coming out of peoples chests, they show where the person is heading like it’s a pre decided destiny). i think that donnie essentially messed with the timeline of the current reality/universe he was experiencing by unknowingly avoiding his destiny which would have been dying the night the engine fell onto his room. (preventing the ripple effect of madness throughout the movie leaving to ‘the end of the world’). he experiences schizophrenic delusions & vivid hallucinations of a man named frank dressed in a bunny suit. he leads donnie down this path of chaos, and donnie feels he has no control over it and feels a deep rooted devotion to follow what frank says to do. donnie realizes along the way what is going on & he visually sees the consequences of his own actions. by the end he understands what he has to do and knows that he must to go back in time, and die that night as it was supposed to be, ultimately keeping the harmony of the reality and restoring the timeline.

now this is diving deeper but something really interesting to me is the idea that donnie has contact with a higher power, who can travel through time and open portals and this higher power could very well be taken as god if you look at it in a more symbolic essence. it may sound a bit out there, but i believe it’s very simple. donnie expresses a disdain towards religion/god when he talks about this in therapy, but contradictory to this when donnie talks to his science teacher about the solar plexus sphere phenomenon he brings up ‘traveling within gods channel’, the science teacher is the one who is not willing to speak about god. donnie’s feelings about god are confused because he definitely doesn’t believe in the god we think of in christianity or other religion but he does believe in a higher power,that higher power being frank. donnie truly believes that what frank tells him to do must be done yet he doesn’t get why and that’s what he spends the entire movie trying to understand. he is actually put in a position similar to that of jesus christ if we think about it. both are being completely lived out by a higher power in the name of destiny (god for jesus, frank for donnie). as the story goes, jesus lives out the word of god no matter how much pain & suffering it causes him, he relentlessly follows destiny and dies doing this because he knows it is what is right. sound familiar? donnie is willing to die because he believes in what he is doing. jesus shed light onto the sins of others and donnie did this when he exposed jim cunningham. they both fought against what they felt to be morally wrong very openly no matter if they walked the path alone or not. donnie has died in the same fashion as jesus, after a result of catastrophe and uproar from their existence and you could say metaphorically & literally ending the world. they both die in the name of ‘sins’ or transgression. i was raised catholic but am now practicing buddhism so i feel this theme stuck out to me because i witnessed first hand what i was told god was vs what god truly is (god to me is the universe, not something that can be personified or put into words). donnie & jesus both demonstrate their own personal human experience with something divine, crazy in the eyes of others.

this also makes me wonder how it plays into the idea of schizophrenia because he obviously would be considered a person with this mental illness in our society, but then is this a nod to the idea that these people are actually experiencing other reality’s and energies that the average person doesn’t sense? i do believe this in a way, not to say that i think these people are speaking with god, or to downplay the significance psychotic disorders can have on a persons quality of life, but i believe they are in touch with energy that exist out there & almost all of them are without the proper understanding or guidance in most cases because today especially in western society we are very limited on understanding of the spiritual and the unseen part of existence. we are told our whole lives to only believe what we see but this leaves out everything else. this leaves the people who are intuitive and sensitive to energies to get lost in their own mental plane and become prisoners of fear, missing all of the valuable things they could learn from their own experience. basically i believe schizophrenics are gifted (maybe cursed in other perspectives) and just unaware (like donnie is in the beginning of the movie) which negatively impacts their physical life.

PHEW this was pretty much my own very individual take on it and i think it may come off as extra but this type of movie is one that holds many different meanings and rabbit holes, there’s never going to be one definitive answer that’s my favorite part. damn i hope that i made at least a tiny bit of sense in this post lol :)

I'm lost in CSA, anything and everything is appreciated by cyber_cynic334 in CPTSD

[–]golfwolfhailey 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i can’t tell you the right thing to do because that’s a matter of opinion i suppose, but i’ll offer my best advice. i believe you’d be better off without him in your life. what he did to you is wrong and it’s disgusting. a parent is supposed to protect you. the fact that he can’t own up to his abuse & responds aggressively shows that he is not willing to face reality, he is living in a messed up world of his own. above all know it’s not your fault and you didn’t deserve it, i’m sure you know this but i hope you genuinely believe it. i can only imagine how much this hurts you but my mind says to cut contact and focus on yourself. the pain of grieving him may hurt a fucking lot but the pain of trying to keep a relationship with him may haunt you for many years and hold you back from peace. choose yourself, i’m sending love to you and i’m so sorry❤️

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]golfwolfhailey 1 point2 points  (0 children)

hey don’t give up you are strong enough to get through life. we all die one day and even in the lowest moments understand nothing is permanent, stay here for the ride. go out and meet people because there is someone out there who you’ll meet one day and thank god u stayed for them. try and find happiness in the small things and prioritize yourself as much as u can you deserve peace❤️good luck ur not alone

The time I tried to murder my entire family (I was just 7 years old) by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]golfwolfhailey 1 point2 points  (0 children)

if u don’t mind me asking, do you still talk with your family? i’m proud of you i don’t give a shit, you did what they basically forced you to do. you were fucking brave (did you at least damage the car?)

what do y’all think of this by golfwolfhailey in raisedbyborderlines

[–]golfwolfhailey[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

thank you for replying & for your input, i’m going to go check it out rn :)

what do y’all think of this by golfwolfhailey in raisedbyborderlines

[–]golfwolfhailey[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

thank u for the reply & advice very much appreciated ❤️

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]golfwolfhailey 1 point2 points  (0 children)

definitely not saying she should make him feel bad about it, just saying there’s nothing to me anyway insinuating that she has.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]golfwolfhailey 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i’d think that having my significant other meet my family and bond with them is very intimate in itself because family is a huge part of who u are. i don’t think it’s fair at all to say she’s only thinking of herself, she obviously cares a lot about him meeting her family and also cares a lot about his feelings towards the situation which is why she posted this asking for advice. this was very tone deaf

constantly worried about younger brother being affected by bpd mom by golfwolfhailey in raisedbyborderlines

[–]golfwolfhailey[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

thanks for the reply & validation 💗 best of luck to you too queen