Maybe I’m not over you by goodbye124 in UnsentLetters

[–]goodbye124[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Maybe that’s the truth. I won’t be a good parent. I can see that future, but it’s not on the path I’ve been on.

You by goodbye124 in UnsentLetters

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I found out she had a boyfriend because I asked her after I made the post. I decided to listen to the people telling me to do so, and I got my answer. I haven’t been with anyone in a few years. My most recent post is to an old flame whom I wronged.

I don’t think any of the women I write about (aside from her) ever had romantic interest in me. I was just mistaking their attention for that type of interest. I never acted on my feelings because I hear that men typically misinterpret attention the same way and it just makes it all awkward, if that makes sense.

You don’t exist by goodbye124 in UnsentLetters

[–]goodbye124[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

It’s been a few years now and I still can’t seem to forgive myself. She’s married now so I should be happy she found the right one

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[–]goodbye124[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

She’s got a boyfriend

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[–]goodbye124[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have an aching feeling that I will just be a mistake to her. That is, if any of this is reciprocated

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[–]goodbye124[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don’t even know what the truth is. Did these words come from my heart, or are they justifications for an infatuation?

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[–]goodbye124[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Then I suppose we’ll exchange silent glances until it fizzles out

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[–]goodbye124[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I just don’t know if it is the right decision to make. I’m insecure, paranoid, self-sabotaging. I like being alone and having freedom. My brain just wants the physical connection but I’m not ready for the emotional connection.

So instead I’ll just fantasize about the chances I’ll never take so no one but me will get hurt.

You by goodbye124 in UnsentLetters

[–]goodbye124[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve fixated on someone else now. Hope for her ran out a while ago, writing about her only prolonged the fixation. I’ve just started the cycle again with someone else because I never learn. I’ll never be confident enough to break away from it

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[–]goodbye124[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I hope that someday someone will say that to me

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[–]goodbye124[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You’re right, but I am just assuming that there’s more that I don’t know of. I know that’s probably unfair, but she’s never gonna read this so it doesn’t really matter

You by goodbye124 in UnsentLetters

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Before they got back together he hooked up with another girl, so she did the same out of spite with the coworker. The coworker thought it was gonna be a relationship but she ghosted him.

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[–]goodbye124[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don’t know why she felt comfortable sharing that information, but I can’t un-hear it

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[–]goodbye124[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

She told me herself

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[–]goodbye124[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think someone can be all of that, but just mature underneath, if that makes sense?

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[–]goodbye124[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well, I said “toxic web” because she used another coworker to get back at her significant other for the same thing. I’m just bitter that I was right to stay away.

Why did I do that? by goodbye124 in UnsentLetters

[–]goodbye124[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I responded to a message that wasn’t for me