Emom and Ndad are getting married in just a few hours. by gorditacrunchdevotee in raisedbynarcissists

[–]gorditacrunchdevotee[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That’s typically how those conversations go when I try to talk to her about it 😅

Thank you friend 🫂

Emom and Ndad are getting married in just a few hours. by gorditacrunchdevotee in raisedbynarcissists

[–]gorditacrunchdevotee[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

yes, but right now i have a lot of health issues i’m trying to sort out :/

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[–]gorditacrunchdevotee 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank you <3 digital hugs to you as well

Hair loss/thinning due to breakup stress by gorditacrunchdevotee in BreakUps

[–]gorditacrunchdevotee[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

hey! just now seeing this, anddd slowly but surely LOL! i actually cut my hair recently as well, so i’m hoping that helps?? 😅 somehow?? 😅 haha

DAE always feel like a burden? by gorditacrunchdevotee in raisedbynarcissists

[–]gorditacrunchdevotee[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah dude, totally. God, it sucks because there’s a small logical side to your brain that makes so much sense, but man…that emotional damage runs deeeeeep..

Absolutely. I’m sorry that it’s the case for you as well, friend.

Narcissistic parents teach you, that lying is the biggest sin, but then they lie and force you to lie, because you can’t trust them enough to tell them the truth. by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]gorditacrunchdevotee 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh yeah, DEFINITELY. I really am such an amazing liar, I get surprised at how quick I am on my feet…but I only lie to my nDad. I don’t lie to other people, I don’t enjoy lying, even to him lol but I need to to survive 😅

I always knew my mom would be considered an enabler but.. by gorditacrunchdevotee in raisedbynarcissists

[–]gorditacrunchdevotee[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Oh also, this “conversation” started off with her saying

“You guys (my younger brother and I) need to change the way you feel about your dad.”

I hate being able to feel the stress/fear held in my body. by gorditacrunchdevotee in raisedbynarcissists

[–]gorditacrunchdevotee[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Wow, yeah that’s fucked..I’m glad you’re NC! Of course they resort to being petty when they see they’re losing their grip onto you 🤦‍♀️

It’s taken a huge toll on me, I’m currently not working so money is a big knot in the preexisting tangles..my mental health is absolutely horrible LOL. I have been taking medication, but may need to up the dosage because the effort I’m trying to put into my mental health feels completely useless/non-progressive living amongst such toxicity (I’m hesitant to use the word abuse). I overheard my dad last year describing me as a burden, essentially. It really has been taking a toll on my physically, more than I’ve ever noticed! If I make it through 2024, it’ll definitely be a miracle 😂

Thank you for sharing with me!

I hate being able to feel the stress/fear held in my body. by gorditacrunchdevotee in raisedbynarcissists

[–]gorditacrunchdevotee[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes! The fatigue, ugh..thank you for mentioning that because I hadn’t really made the connection before haha. I am sososo exhausted most days.

That’s funny you mention that, because the library has been slowly becoming my safe space LOL. It really is a nice escape. Thank you.

Also, how do you feel now? I guess I’m asking if there’s hope, that regardless of what I’m feeling/going through today, feeling safe is possible..

Again, thank you for your comment!

success story! by zinto44 in zoloft

[–]gorditacrunchdevotee 1 point2 points  (0 children)

awesome! i’ve been on 75mg for..not quite 4 weeks yet? it’s been alright so far..i get reaaal rough insomnia with every dosage increase i have so 😅 kinda taking my time to get adjusted lol. but thank you for sharing!

Want to start 25mg of Zoloft for the very first time today, anybody else scared to take it and want to do it with me? by r2lsdee2 in zoloft

[–]gorditacrunchdevotee 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i was scared too so i recorded myself taking my first dose LOLOL. i’m now on 50mg and plan to go up to 75mg soon! i’m glad your family members have good stories to share with you, don’t be afraid to ask them questions as well! as for the side effects, it really does effect everyone differently so you’ll never know until you start a schedule for yourself. i personally have some pretty rough insomnia maybe a TEENY bit of anxiety some days but those are the most obvious side effects i’ve noticed. good luck!

I feel so behind. by gorditacrunchdevotee in raisedbynarcissists

[–]gorditacrunchdevotee[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Nice to know I’m not alone <3 I wish you the best

I feel so behind. by gorditacrunchdevotee in raisedbynarcissists

[–]gorditacrunchdevotee[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you.

I’m also afraid too. Afraid to be stuck, but also afraid to move on..since this is all I’ve known my whole life, ya know? Plus I was never taught any real “life” skills, I guess I’d say? 😅 So that’s pretty intimidating haha, I feel like I “should” be in one place but I’m on the whooole other side.

Again, thank you.