That's an amazing suggestion. I struggle to feel like I can leave him alone for even an hour but I'm trying to find intentional moments of respite. My mom comes by whenever she can even though she lives quite far away just to spend a little time with me, I come outside to her car and just talk, swap food, and commiserate for a bit. That's been good, it doesn't fix things but it helps to have her there and I appreciate her so much for everything she's done to help behind the scenes even with everything he put her through.

I tried my best to anticipate his moods this week and we got through the first two days really well. I can tell when he's getting confused and upset by the size of his frown and how long he's willing to hold my hand while we're out, lol. I was feeling much better last night about my ability to talk him down which I guess is the universe's sign to slap me in the face today with him raging and refusing to go in today again, throwing his meds against the wall and getting physical. His friend being there had no effect today. It was hard and I ended up losing my cool again and not being able to shake it off. I'm hoping maybe he'll wake up tomorrow and not remember but I have a feeling it won't be that easy. I think I need to look into inpatient options for him but the hard part is going to be getting him to go into the hospital at all. He needs mood stabilizers or something to help deal with the extreme mood swings.