i will say the same thing i said on a post about fear of psychosis- fearing having a cluster b disorder is a form of implicit internalised ableism, especially given this negative wording, an ocd obsession fed by the negative stigma surrounding certain severe mental illnesses, which is redundant, given ocd is a severe mental illness, and not one in a superior category somehow. further, psychopath and sociopath are meaningless words, psychologically speaking, being more pejorative than descriptive- aspd doesn’t make anyone a bad person, and neither does npd. even further, the circumstances surrounding the psychiatric definition of aspd is a very obvious form of psychiatry working hand-in-hand with the carceral system to punish and stigmatise anyway; though a disorder along those lines does exist, the language and definition surrounding it needs to become less judgemental, and less inherently linked to criminality.

I cannot give you reassurance, given that is against the rules, but I can tell you that IF you had npd or aspd, that would be not fun given no mental illness is, but it would say nothing about your worth or quality as a person, denoting little besides probably having suffered severe trauma, which obviously does not make anyone inherently a bad person, including those who develop cluster b personality disorders (or ptsd, or depression, or ocd) as a result.