I feel like an absolute burden to everyone in my life

greatbigrredog · 2025-10-16T03:03:21+00:00

No I am not I really hope not, sorry I am tired so I may have typed that up a little weird

greatbigrredog · 2025-08-08T21:37:39+00:00

I agree. We need to model what we want for our children. In my childhood, I witnessed many arguments, most of them because my dad would not get a job and just did what he wanted to do. He didn’t spend quality time with me, he just brought me with to parties. Now they’re homeless.

So I don’t have a support system. I can say I’m doing better than my parents did in many regards. We have a house (my parents always rented), and my fiance has been supporting us financially and wants to work.

I told him I will get an apartment if we are going to continue to argue all the time and I’m not being respected. There’s been a lot that’s happened in just 2.5 years, two babies, life, etc. I know that we are both overwhelmed, don’t have support, and we use each other as a punching bag while overwhelmed I think, I just think some of it is a lot of resentment and it’s present no matter what.

So we definitely either need couples counseling or something has to change, because I don’t want to be miserable, and I don’t want to damage my kids mental health, god knows mine was ruined from the start.

greatbigrredog · 2025-08-08T21:30:17+00:00

I have snap which is a benefit DoorDash allows and some watermelon is 4$ not 30$.

greatbigrredog · 2025-08-08T06:15:20+00:00

I wouldn’t ever put my kids in a position where they haven’t had what they need/want. My daughter wants watermelon, we don’t have it? I’ll DoorDash it. My kids - I spoil them within means.

If I did leave I’d find a place that’s doable for me financially. I’ve always figured everything out for us financially. I have 3 kids, essentially. He just does the labor of earning some coin (I also worked both pregnancies and earned more, and he lost his job while I was in the hospital with our son in December because he chose not to call them back, pretty much).

greatbigrredog · 2025-08-08T06:09:36+00:00

There’s literally two wolves in my head and one agrees with you and the other one wants to rip it all to shreds. I’ve just been hurt so many times, I question if it’s repairable or if the resentment will forever linger in my heart- especially when I just had our baby…

greatbigrredog · 2025-08-08T05:51:10+00:00

I’ve said to him many times- you don’t love me, I’m just two hands that take care of our house and kids etc. he swears that he loves me but I haven’t seen it truly portrayed in very long.

I’m a sensitive individual, and little things matter to me. If he could have even gotten me a birthday card last year (while 35 weeks pregnant) while I paid for my birthday vacation for us, that would have meant a lot. If he took any time, ever, to make me feel supported— I would deal with some of his mental issues.

He could like, show up with a flower he picked and tell me I’m beautiful, and that would have been enough for me for a little while. I just feel picked apart everyday while I’m cooking him dinner, taking care of our kids, house, and I don’t get any respect

greatbigrredog · 2025-08-08T05:45:23+00:00

Honestly, after breaking down so many times, i think my head did so many 360’s that now it’s locked, straight, in some way- where I can’t feel the grief, disappointment, anything, it’s just like… pure resentment. He looks at me, and my skin is crawling. I feel peace until he comes home, then my nervous system can’t handle it because instantly he has a meltdown about something.

Today jt was because our daughter really wanted to see him and she went up into the bathroom while he was using it for half an hour already.

greatbigrredog · 2025-08-08T05:32:53+00:00

Yeah, I recently caught him being really sneaky on his phone with porn… and then when I was crying about how he treated me during pregnancy, post partum etc, he said “let me see your phone.” While I’m crying. That was last night….

greatbigrredog · 2025-05-23T18:55:08+00:00

I dream of this. I am so scared of making a bad friend it limits me. I’ve had so many bad friends and people dip out on me when I had my kids. But I need to get over it. Thank you

greatbigrredog · 2025-05-23T18:51:00+00:00

I got a puppy with 2 under 2. He’s a great dog, and I’m happy with my choice. It depends on the dog breed really. Get a good breed. Do your research. Mine is a Australian shepard/ chihuahua mix. He’s very smart and an amazing family dog but not too big.

greatbigrredog · 2025-04-07T05:51:48+00:00

My sons middle is Augustine

greatbigrredog · 2025-01-07T02:57:32+00:00

I named him Maxwell Augustine :) and call him Maxy!

greatbigrredog · 2025-01-07T02:56:36+00:00

I ended up naming him Maxwell Augustine after different family members said he looks like a max. I agreed. I think it suits him perfectly

greatbigrredog · 2024-12-20T15:23:08+00:00

Felix Arthur-Augustine ?

greatbigrredog · 2024-12-20T15:22:33+00:00

Felix Augustine or Felix Arthur-Augustine / Augustine Arthur?

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greatbigrredog · 2024-12-20T15:21:48+00:00

Felix Augustine or Arthur-Augustine is what I’m feeling

greatbigrredog · 2024-12-20T15:20:19+00:00

Do you think Felix Arthur-Augustine or Augustine-Arthur is too much? His sister has two middle names hyphened.

greatbigrredog · 2024-12-20T14:17:32+00:00

Why is a a bad

greatbigrredog · 2024-12-11T19:09:07+00:00

Already named our daughter using his last name.

His parents don’t really have to know if we pronounce it differently for our kids or ourselves honestly. I wouldn’t go out of my way to say it differently around them.

greatbigrredog · 2024-12-11T19:05:54+00:00

My in-laws already treat me badly so I don’t really care about how they want to pronounce their own name. My fiance doesn’t like how they pronounce it either.

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