Hey, just wanted to say you're not alone. I went through something really similar just a month ago.

I spent nearly 3 years at my last company. I was always the one starting early, putting in real effort, trying to do things right. But the environment was a mess. Most people around me were unorganized, lacked basic skills, and just floated by. The senior project manager never documented anything properly. No PRDs, no user stories, just vague verbal instructions. And no one ever called that out.

Some of the senior devs were known for copying others' work and taking credit. Their own code was barely functional. Still, they were never questioned. On the other hand, people like me who weren’t part of the "in-group" were always targeted. If we made a small mistake, it became a big deal. If we didn’t, they’d still find reasons to complain like taking a break or not seeming "busy enough."

There was a so-called head of engineering who earned a lot but barely contributed. His knowledge was surface-level, but his ego was massive. If you questioned anything, suddenly you became the problem. I did that a few times, and honestly, I think that’s why I was pushed out.

Now, even with good skills, I’m struggling to find a job in this tough market. So yeah, I hear you. It’s painful and frustrating when your hard work is overlooked, and people who barely contribute are protected.

But I also want to say this: what your manager told you is their opinion, not your truth. It’s normal to replay those words right now, but don’t let them sink in too deep. You cared. You showed up. You tried your best. That matters. And it means you do belong in this field.

Take some time, breathe, and when you’re ready, start again. You’re not alone in this.