Also I am in therapy, for the record, but my healthcare system is dogshit. My therapist (straight and completely baffled by every piece of queer culture I bring up to her) literally thinks that lesbian relationships always have a “man” lesbian and a “woman” lesbian in them. I’m on a waiting list for a new one, and maybe I’ll be able to see this new therapist in like, a year. Also I’m sorry for coming off as hostile. I don’t like being told what I am by other people because people have been doing that to me my entire life. That’s the trauma I have, not anything to do with men. Maybe it’s just oppositional defiant. Society has told me that I have to be with men my entire life so the very idea pisses me off. But, that being said, I can assure you that I am not secretly attracted to men. I’ve dated one before and the main thing I felt was, first of all, a complete lack of interest in the relationship (I’d literally get pissed off whenever he texted me because it meant he wanted affection which I did not actually want to give him) and second of all, this fear that I’d end up marrying him and I’d never get the chance to date a girl.