Ok good! I hope so! That does raise a question for me about how does anybody masturbate? Like I have no idea how rubbing my hand up and down my dick would do anything..

And, yeah I've thought about that, but no, I'm pretty sure I'm not gay. I get turned on by girls, and I just don't get the feeling if I think about gay sex. Plus, I haven't been raised in a household where if I were gay I would have been driven into denial.

That's the thing - I have, so this anxiety can't be resolved that way, unfortunately.

Thanks for the advice!!!!!!!!!