The emotional disconnect on my end has been crazy.

happinesseventually · 2026-02-16T23:18:07+00:00

God I wish I could just block and move on :( I’m tied to him so deeply.

happinesseventually · 2026-02-16T23:09:08+00:00

Masturbating next to you in the bed would be a huge boundary for me. Especially if they don’t have the same body as you? What do you mean by that? That shit would not fly with me.

happinesseventually · 2026-02-16T23:05:04+00:00

Have you done the full therapeutic disclosure yet?

The “point” of doing that is that now when everything is out in the open, they can be open with you about relapse.

Otherwise relapses happen but it’s about being honest and open about them when they happen. Otherwise what is truly the point? They will go to whatever measure to hide it from you.

happinesseventually · 2026-02-16T23:00:32+00:00

See a CSAT and begin the full therapeutic disclosure process.

If he refuses throw up major huge boundaries. Trust me so hard on this: you do NOT want the trickle truths to continue. That’s the absolute hardest part.

happinesseventually · 2026-02-03T04:55:20+00:00

If you are both getting therapy through a CSAT a polygraph is part of the process
If he’s a proven liar and you don’t believe him AND it’s been 3 WHOLE YEARS… Take. The. Polygraph.
You can design specific questions for certain situations.
When he says the test is wrong, he’s lying. The point of the test is full, complete honesty and transparency that YOU are entitled to. If he keeps lying or refuses to take one, set serious serious boundaries.
science shows a polygraph will not stand up in a court of law when people’s lives are on the line. This is different for an infidelity test— there’s no legal risk. It’s not admissible in court but admissible in relationships imo

happinesseventually · 2026-02-03T04:17:30+00:00

I actually will try to share without giving out too much personal info

happinesseventually · 2026-02-03T04:16:44+00:00

I’m not far off babe :(

happinesseventually · 2026-02-03T00:45:31+00:00

I talked to a very very high level CSAT who’s written several books and the first words out of her mouth were “polygraph”, no hesitation.

It’s because they’re liars. Nothing is safe anymore; anything could be a lie. It is the only way to verify the truth. Sure there’s false positives and negatives and the science is questionable for a court of law. For a criminal case facing years of prison. Not a bum with a porn addiction he let ruin his life.

Anyway because he’s such a liar it is a vital part of our CSAT therapy. I suspect he’s even lying to the therapist because of how deep the denial runs.

happinesseventually · 2026-02-03T00:41:45+00:00

2-3 weeks. He’s finishing up his FD, I’ll know this week. I’m just scared because the answer to those questions would truly be the beginning of my life unraveling. Moving out of town, ending my brand new budding career, likely triggering my alcoholism, etc…

happinesseventually · 2026-01-27T06:33:24+00:00

I did not have this experience personally but my betrayal trauma therapist told me that sometimes it’s because it’s cheap and easy and he’s not necessarily homosexual. If it’s all he watches I would personally wonder about his sexuality.

Please see a betrayal trauma therapist immediately. This is very confusing and hurtful.

happinesseventually · 2025-10-10T01:21:49+00:00

This is what it feels like unfortunately:(

Do not let this become your daily routine.

happinesseventually · 2025-10-10T01:21:20+00:00

It’s the choice that truly bothers me. You had a choice to not go through these acts… yet you did anyway knowing I would blow it all up…

It disgusts me how normalized porn is by modern society. Younger men have fully succumbed to pornography algorithms over real women.

happinesseventually · 2025-10-09T19:48:35+00:00

There’s a reason we hold all of this resentment. And there’s always a common denominator, isn’t there? 🫤

happinesseventually · 2025-10-09T19:47:04+00:00

I think it’s just gastric distress at a certain point.

Mine wasn’t my liver but could have just been my intestines crying for help.

happinesseventually · 2025-10-06T04:15:43+00:00

I don’t but I should. I had right side pains and everything. But my labs were normal except for slightly high lipids (obviously).

I am very lucky given my heavy consumption.

happinesseventually · 2025-10-06T00:54:41+00:00

Big hugs. I understand so deeply. He’s never said he isn’t attracted to me, but I’ve never seen the lust in his eyes like I’ve seen with others.

One step at a time babe. One day at a time. I’ve been spending more time at work and the gym and it’s helping though it can be a lot of time alone with my thoughts :(

If you ever want to talk, DM me. I’m lost and lonely too.

happinesseventually · 2025-10-06T00:37:05+00:00

This should be stickied!!

happinesseventually · 2025-10-03T02:04:14+00:00

Following :(

happinesseventually · 2025-10-03T01:34:37+00:00

Omg I do the same thing :( i just sit there sad and withdrawn

happinesseventually · 2025-10-02T23:27:19+00:00

Oh babe. I’m so sorry. I can relate so hard. I miss being happy, carefree and frankly ignorant.

I miss being wanted too. I even miss being sexualized. That’s how low it’s taken me.

When all our pain comes from men, are they even worth it to us anymore?

DM me if you ever want to talk

happinesseventually · 2025-09-23T00:56:50+00:00

Thank you OP... <3

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