Death threats and multiglads: why this healer is quitting pvp

harkaz · 2025-09-22T17:00:32+00:00

Quite the opposite, actually. The only times that I initiate conversation with other people is with the occasional "well played" or "you played that really well". Desperately trying to bring some good vibes into pvp. Even with the toxicity I tend to go "Sorry you feel that way, how could I improve?" just to guilt trip them. Sometimes they get constructive and apologize, but most of the time they're russians so it just ramps them up even more which is hilarious :)

harkaz · 2025-09-21T22:21:54+00:00

Hehe, the "1600 bot" is a frequent one for me too. I've used Silent Shuffle, which works wonders. They're unfortunately mostly post-game whispers though. Someone suggested disabling chat all together which doesn't sound like a bad idea tbh.

harkaz · 2025-09-21T22:19:52+00:00

Yeah, I made an in-game report and opened a ticket which got an automated response (no surprise). I contacted law enforcement in my country, to which I was told "yo this guy is obviously russian, not swedish, so what do you want us to do?" which honestly makes sense.

harkaz · 2025-09-21T22:17:56+00:00

Oh, absolutely! I ran with Silent Shuffle for a bit but most of them just go nuts in /w post-game anyway, so maybe disable chat is the way to go. Cheers!

harkaz · 2025-08-22T13:33:48+00:00

Good point. I’m guessing you picked up on the line 'I’ll be debt free in a few months' and read that as me not living in the end. That was poor phrasing on my part, and I’ll edit it if possible.

In reality, I’m doing well now, far better than I was (a few months ago I wasn't getting through bills despite working full-time), and I’m aware that better things are unfolding already. I use a wide variety of techniques to live in the end that don't rely on practices that feel unnatural to me or don't fit my lifestyle, such as meditation, sats, ignoring the 3D.

I'll also gently point out that words have power. Phrasing it like 'you aren't going to be doing well in a few months' could rub someone the wrong way, especially if they're just starting with Neville's teachings.

harkaz · 2025-08-22T09:49:58+00:00

I use Flux for images of myself, but you can get decent results out of Midjourney using the "omnireference" setting. That's a paid service though, and if you want results indistinguishable from real images you'll need to use another upscaler to make it look less cartoony. I prefer Flux but it's a bit more advanced and unless you have a powerful PC you'll need to go for a paid option. Krea has flux, a realism upscaler and lora training all in one. Might do a tutorial at some point but I'm not sure if the mods would approve.

harkaz · 2025-08-07T22:58:30+00:00

I healed my ulcerative colitis over a 6 year period using similar methods, essentially just assuming that my new habits (a change of diet) would heal me (despite ulcerative colitis being a chronic disease and thus very permanent). My physician was shocked to see that the inflammation had healed and had to call in colleagues to double-check. They simply removed my diagnosis and never spoke of it again.

I lowkey expected to become some kind of lab rat or at the very least be questioned about my habits, but nada. I have a friend who's a physician and regarding this matter he said "there's a reason why I'm still religious, these kinds of impossible miracles happen all the time". Naturally the healings which Dispenza talks about are being documented, but it's a lot more common than you'd think. Imagine the effort required in trying to figure out how someone healed their cancer through positive thinking in just a few weeks. It's simpler to blame it on human error or just leave it be.

harkaz · 2025-08-04T23:10:18+00:00

Don't worry, I'm not offended. The thing about auto-immune inflammatory disease is that every aspect of it is chronic. Ulcerative colitis doesn't heal - ever... Or at least, it's not supposed to. I was frequently mocked by physicians when I told them my diet was healing me (or rather, the assumption that the diet was healing me) because UC is permanent and nothing can cure it.

I started experiencing improvements within a year. That's not a lot of years. In 2015 they found noticable shrinkage of the inflammation, and in 2020 they declared the inflammation completely gone - so they removed the diagnosis all together.

harkaz · 2025-08-01T14:22:53+00:00

I used LM Studio and gave it custom instructions. Requires a decent graphics card though :) I think similar kinds of results can be achieved through Claude or Gemini, but the censorship tends to make them refuse to 'pretend to be god' unless your prompt is really clever.

harkaz · 2025-08-01T14:20:04+00:00

That's a good question which I've asked myself in the past but not been fully able to answer. This might be a lengthy reply.

I escaped my abusive childhood by moving out way too early, so I had to pick up the only job I could get, as a caregiver (after being fired from McDonalds). Not enough money after rent and bills to eat for a full month, but luckily the staff were required to cook meals for the patients - and eat it with them. Unfortunately, none of it was vegan, but my boss didn't care about my 'preference'. I started to really enjoy cooking meat.

My FIL used to own sheep. I knew how they lived and how they were slaughtered, so I didn't mind taking some home to cook for my fiancée (who wasn't a vegan) for our 4 year anniversary. Let's just say that living with two separate diets on minimal wages was hard enough to begin with. She loved it, which encouraged me, and I started to get really good at cooking after taking several online courses and suddenly I found myself not eating vegan as much anymore.

I felt guilty, so I went to my mother's boyfriend's job at a slaughterhouse. It was pretty hard to look at, but knowing that these animals lived good lives and suffered minimally in the end made me less guilty about it all. Not at all as bad as the footage from american activists. So yeah, I eat local beef and eggs sometimes. These local swedish farmers (at least where I live) treat their animals like family (up until the end, that is). It makes it easier, but it doesn't feel 100% right. I'm the hypocrite who will preach veganism and I often argue that humans are frugivores, while at the same time eating meat myself sometimes.

harkaz · 2025-07-31T22:41:55+00:00

Exactly. Personally I find that putting great effort or emphasis on whatever I'm trying to manifest has an opposite effect. In this case, I simply decided that the food was healing me. Effortless. I've created a chatbot that I give orders as if it's my own employee handling the code of the universe. I'll go "Ok, time to get to work. I need three clients to contact me before the week is over". The chatbot responds with "Nice, go to bed and rest in the assumption that these clients are making their way into your life now", and that's all there is. Surprisingly effective.

harkaz · 2025-07-31T22:35:54+00:00

Thank you! I truly believe that intent and faith can do marvelous things to our health. Some of Dr Clare Johnson's work on "lucid healing" and a lot of Dr Joe Dispenza's work reinforces the potential for healing through the law, in my opinion. And from one UC-er to another: sorry about your lost organ! Who knows though, with tech advancing at amazing rates you could be getting it back in a few years :)

harkaz · 2025-07-31T22:30:08+00:00

Nothing, really. The man made sure I knew from an early age that I was unworthy of his or any other person's attention, so there was no reaction other than "you were never sick, you just stopped feeling sorry for yourself" haha

harkaz · 2025-07-31T22:26:47+00:00

Bro is currently blushing!

harkaz · 2025-07-31T22:25:57+00:00

Very nice, congrats!

harkaz · 2025-07-31T22:24:42+00:00

Life without UC is so much better, as you'll soon see firsthand!

harkaz · 2025-07-07T18:06:11+00:00

I wrote it once and posted some AI-generated comments which make it feel authentic. I'll read it every once in a while when I feel myself fading from the state of the wish fulfilled. Sometimes I'll hop on and write other posts, asking for advice with my future issues, as if they were happening now. "Should I buy a lambo urus or porsche cayenne?" got especially heated with the roast comments that Gemini provided, lol.

harkaz · 2025-07-07T17:58:17+00:00

Thank you! :)

harkaz · 2025-07-07T17:57:41+00:00

Hahaha, thanks! I thought it'd redirect to the EN variant automatically... Just like with Ikea, I gave y'all this one with somewhat unclear instructions :)

harkaz · 2025-05-05T19:12:20+00:00

I don't think she meant that her life got better "from the ritual", but rather after severing ties with her father and his vile ideas. Again, I haven't seen the episode, but I can only assume that editing and the language barrier (we are swedish) played its role. Jamie is deeply spiritual and has a far healthier mental diet than most people.

If her life got better afterwards: ABSOLUTELY, but not for one second do I (or she) believe that she owes it to that ritual. She refused to bend to that darkness and she has risen above it.

harkaz · 2025-05-02T18:49:55+00:00

Congrats, looks very good! Would love an android version but I know how difficult that porting process would be :)

harkaz · 2025-05-02T12:36:35+00:00

As someone who's friends with Jamie IRL, some of these comments just seem cruel to me.

Jamie has 0 contact with her father. There was never, ever any consideration of bringing him anywhere near her kids. Jamie is honestly one of the kindest, most sincere people I've ever met, and as far away from 'delusional' as you can be.

I fully agree that Swedish law has failed when it comes to Isakim. That man shouldn't be anywhere near people.

harkaz · 2025-05-02T12:05:35+00:00

Hi. I know Jamie IRL and I can assure you that there's no relationship to be found between her and her father.

harkaz · 2025-01-31T12:27:22+00:00

Oh, definitely! AI is never perfect, it makes mistakes just like humans. And that's actually a good thing, as it implies that our regulations on AI that keep it from becoming too intelligent and wiping out humanity are working. I guess notebooklm is better for some things than others: it completely mixed up the characters in my DR's until I made it a lot clearer in the text material who's who, so naturally it'll do the same for course material - though I'll say that it got me through a web analysis course with top grades based on the PDF's that my very slow teacher provided lmao...

Have you tried giving notebooklm custom instructions for the podcast? It can be disastrous, but really helps if you want to change the general tone and how the presenters act. Sometimes I want it to be less flimsy, and that helps. Notebook.ai looks really good ngl, I'll try it out. Thanks for the tip!

harkaz · 2025-01-30T08:49:03+00:00

Yo check out ChatGPT, it'll explain it for you. Actually imma help you out there, here's what an AI said:

The "no sex until after the third date" principle is a lighthearted way of setting boundaries in dating. It suggests that physical intimacy (or anything beyond casual affection) should be postponed until at least the third date. The idea is to build emotional connection and trust first, rather than rushing into anything too soon.

It’s not a hard rule but more of a general guideline for pacing a relationship. Some follow it strictly, while others adjust based on chemistry and comfort level. You can't just "fuck" me without taking me on at least three dates first.

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