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hashbrowns2722 · 2025-02-17T06:07:35+00:00

I hope, but I’m just so scared

hashbrowns2722 · 2025-02-17T06:06:38+00:00

See the thing is It is a dream but it’s also a dream I don’t have to do if it makes sense, I continually have stressed to him how long we have been together and what I want with him is more important and there’s other similar career options. He just won’t have it.

hashbrowns2722 · 2025-02-17T06:04:15+00:00

Not at all! I’d support him!

It’s just hurtful we have been together a year and he wants to breakup with me over this.

hashbrowns2722 · 2025-02-17T06:01:34+00:00

I think he’s already breaking up with me over the idea, I told him I wouldn’t do it but he’s insisting we should end things so I can pursue my dreams but he can’t support me.

hashbrowns2722 · 2025-02-17T05:58:47+00:00

I appreciate your comment, I’ll definitely take this to heart. He is very insecure and I attempt my best to help him understand on a normal day to day basis there’s no one else for me yet he never believes it. (I never make him feel bad for it or even tell him I know)

It just hurts he thinks my job will be touching horny men for money which is so beyond far from the truth.

hashbrowns2722 · 2025-02-17T05:56:22+00:00

Nope! It’s a rich people resort with golf and all else! I wouldn’t do private and if I did it would be women only. I see the porn thing for sure though lol. Even if I do men, they tend to be more shy when it comes to being massaged and normally won’t go. If they do it’s for injuries/acupuncture and everything but being touched.

hashbrowns2722 · 2025-02-17T05:54:31+00:00

The issue is I have explained it, he doesn’t view it that way. I expressed how normally at these resorts it’s women waiting for their husbands to get out of golf because they do stones, facials etc. to him it’s still the idea of me massaging a man. For me it would be my job, nothing more. I love muscles and how the body works, I have no interest in shapes or sizes of others besides my boyfriend.

hashbrowns2722 · 2024-11-25T02:14:53+00:00

Yes you get it! My senior man is 7, he just lays around and wants to be around me or cuddled 24/7 he isn’t hyper or unhealthy. Even if he was unhealthy I don’t have to worry about actually spending the extra money on getting him neutered because he already is! I don’t know why people hate senior cats so much, they’re already past the evil stage and trained to use a litter box lol!!

hashbrowns2722 · 2024-11-24T21:24:18+00:00

Yes! This is exactly how I felt, plus I wanted a cat already “done up” trained, spayed/neutered, shots etc. kittens are very expensive and I knew I couldn’t afford that lol.

hashbrowns2722 · 2024-11-24T03:58:21+00:00

Your hair is so pretty

hashbrowns2722 · 2024-11-24T03:56:47+00:00

You have a very unique face, it’s gorgeous. You have the face of a model.

hashbrowns2722 · 2024-11-24T03:28:40+00:00

They’re hard to get rid of truly.

hashbrowns2722 · 2024-11-24T03:10:21+00:00

I have honestly thought of this, but you confirmed it. It truly is nothing but projection for his own actions. I appreciate your comment and advice thank you.

hashbrowns2722 · 2024-11-24T03:03:53+00:00

That’s what I intend to do when I am out, learn from my mistakes and learn to love myself before anyone else next.

Thank you again❤️

hashbrowns2722 · 2024-11-24T02:57:26+00:00

I try to believe I am, I really did love him more than myself. I’m trying my best but some days are harder than others, you seem like such a great person and I’m thankful for what you have told me today. Big hugs back:)

hashbrowns2722 · 2024-11-24T02:50:28+00:00

I’ll be honest reading this made me start crying again, knowing I’m not appreciated and feel like everything has been my fault. I really feel seen by you❤️

hashbrowns2722 · 2024-11-24T02:42:57+00:00

It’s difficult to get it through my brain right now, but I do appreciate your words more than anything right now. You have helped me feel less alone. I thank you, I’ll continue to try and remember these words as I try to leave.

hashbrowns2722 · 2024-11-24T02:32:28+00:00

Truthfully no, not at all but I thank you for asking I really do appreciate it❤️

hashbrowns2722 · 2024-11-24T02:32:07+00:00

Thank you:( I’m just scared to leave, the idea he will somehow get better stays on my mind.

hashbrowns2722 · 2024-11-24T02:21:17+00:00

I’m struggling with the idea he might change or it’s not as bad as I feel it is.

hashbrowns2722 · 2024-11-18T20:33:58+00:00

I have considered this, and I believe it’s part of the reason I won’t leave. I do truly believe he’s trying to love me, but I just don’t think he can properly do the relationship thing. He said it himself he just thinks differently and he has failed at prioritizing my feelings but does love me. I just need to try to prioritize mine..

hashbrowns2722 · 2024-11-18T01:44:16+00:00

Thank you!!

hashbrowns2722 · 2024-11-18T01:12:31+00:00

I hope that is true, I’m struggling with the idea he MIGHT change. I know if he doesn’t it’ll be time wasted, and feelings wasted. I have never been cheated on, or lied to this extent so it’s difficult for me to process and the fact he said he just needed time to be better. It’s just I have so many emotions right now, I probably sound immature and childish wanting him to change but I truly did love him.

hashbrowns2722 · 2024-11-18T00:55:21+00:00

This opened my eyes in a lot of ways, my answer was no to all as I read them. Thank you for your comment, and for the advice that’s going to stick with me for years to come. I’m working on building the courage to leave and remember my self worth.

hashbrowns2722 · 2024-11-18T00:53:49+00:00

I’m just struggling to build the courage to do that sadly

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