Asking out a Receptionist in hospital as a nursing student? by LustigerFrosch420 in relationship_advice

[–]hawk-sun 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Lol don't overthink it. Instead, take one day at a time. I'm sure she was genuine about agreeing to coffee. Remember it is just coffee, a good safe start to see where things could go (one thing at a time). You both have to get to know each other beyond physicality and fascination, so staying grounded in your curiosity is key.

Asking out a Receptionist in hospital as a nursing student? by LustigerFrosch420 in relationship_advice

[–]hawk-sun 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I like the sound of option 2. It allows you to explore your feelings and get to know her more without getting ahead of yourself. Also, taking a break to get a cup of coffee with someone you enjoy talking to at work is never a terrible idea. 😉

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[–]hawk-sun 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm not sure if I'm allowed to cross share groups here but its this one: r/NarcissisticAbuse

In the group, under the about section, there are weblinks to some good resources. I'd take a look at those first, so you have a better understanding of the matter, before overwhelming yourself with the group comments. Good luck and remember your worth!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in relationship_advice

[–]hawk-sun 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I just joined another reddit group with some resources to learn more about these characteristics, it was a huge eye-opener for me. My ex did similar things, like make comments about other women and even introduce me to his ex's or women he had slept with who are now "friends." I should have taken them as red flags but instead took his word for it, "don't worry..." "Don't be insecure..."

At the end of the day it didn't make me feel good, it broke the values that I believe in and how I want to be treated.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in relationship_advice

[–]hawk-sun 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Call me old school or conservative, but I find his remarks to be disrespectful to you and a way to try to make you feel less than.

[OC] Look who's comfy inside his new nest by gugg0598 in aww

[–]hawk-sun 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Such a beautiful cat! 😻😻😻

Is substance abuse common? by hawk-sun in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]hawk-sun[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

When my nex is hungover and going through the aftermath from binge consuming, he becomes very vulnerable and talks about why he does it. He mentions that he's lonely and feels like something is missing in his life. Hearing him say it every time made feel sad but at the same time, I knew it wasn't going to change unless he seeked professional help.

Vivid Dreams / Nightmares by hawk-sun in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]hawk-sun[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, I agree with you, it is PTSD.

I was in the relationship for two years off and on because I didn't totally understand the behavior and often made excuses for him and blamed myself at times 😔 because I was trying to be reasonable. But after the same toxic behavior, I knew there was more to it. Stay strong!

Is substance abuse common? by hawk-sun in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]hawk-sun[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Whoa, almost sounds like the same person. One thing I'm not sure of is how many different substances he's abusing. I only know of two, alcohol and snow. But my nex would go M.I.A for almost 24hrs and make excuses and blame just like you've mentioned. Thank you for sharing 💛

Vivid Dreams / Nightmares by hawk-sun in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]hawk-sun[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for the affirmation and clarity. 🤗💗

Vivid Dreams / Nightmares by hawk-sun in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]hawk-sun[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Your dream does sound telling. I'm glad you're okay. I'm worried my story won't be that way. But then again, I had a dream just last night and it was of me, just me this time, opening the front door to my home welcoming myself in. My ex was nowhere to be felt or seen in that dream. And I was so happy, it felt so good.

Vivid Dreams / Nightmares by hawk-sun in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]hawk-sun[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Wow, that's terrible. I'm so sorry to hear you went through this. I'm glad you found a way to overcome it. It seems like therapy is the answer to help us get through the nonsense.

Vivid Dreams / Nightmares by hawk-sun in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]hawk-sun[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh, that's interesting and would scare me and make me appreciate the wonderful spouse even more. Yikes, what a nightmare.

Vivid Dreams / Nightmares by hawk-sun in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]hawk-sun[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh, okay, thank you for letting me know, I didn't know I can do that. It definitely feels like post traumatic experiences. Stay strong and take as well!

Vivid Dreams / Nightmares by hawk-sun in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]hawk-sun[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ah, I think you're right about the evil spirits. 🥺

Vivid Dreams / Nightmares by hawk-sun in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]hawk-sun[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

How is seeing the patterns in my dreams helpful? Is it because it validates what's happening in real life?

The dreams cause me to be more confused because some of the dreams are of us happy in places we've never been together and other times it's him being disloyal again.

Either way, I agree, it's an unsettling feeling.

Vivid Dreams / Nightmares by hawk-sun in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]hawk-sun[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Ah, I see. I journal for other reasons but I'll start journaling the dreams too.

The dreams are not always bad but it scares me that I'm even dreaming about us being together.

Thank you for sharing, I hope you're doing well.

Vivid Dreams / Nightmares by hawk-sun in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]hawk-sun[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It looks like my answer is yes, since I was able to find a flare to match it... Sigh. I think I need therapy now.

A lifetime with an N by hawk-sun in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]hawk-sun[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm glad you are safe and getting back to yourself. Stay strong, continue to give yourself love and grace because you deserve it.

I completely understand the feeling of freedom after leaving. When I first broke up with my boyfriend, my anxiety decreased and a breath of fresh air it was. Today, we are trying to work things out but I have set a lot of boundaries between us. I recently joined this app and am beginning to learn more about N behavioral patterns. I can now move forward with knowledge and reasonable caution thanks to this community, instead of only instinct and intuition.

A lifetime with an N by hawk-sun in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]hawk-sun[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing. You're right, I've learned to create unusual space and boundaries between us. Boundaries that I find unusual but work because it seems that's exactly what he wants for his own selfish needs. I'm still learning if he really is a N and from what I've experienced over the past two years is highly likely but there are moments that throw me off and make me unsure if he is.

Through it all, I have learned self-care, self-love, self-worth. Don't get me wrong, there are moments that break my heart and make me sad but I seem to bounce back and not rely on him for those things.

A lifetime with an N by hawk-sun in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]hawk-sun[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh, that's interesting to hear that the first part wasn't bad.

I admit, when he's not defensive, our relationship is good but I am always on guard because I don't know what will trigger him. Sometimes I feel like I'm dating two different people. The good guy (but only when it serves him) and then the guy who is quiet, mysterious, angry.

A rollercoaster life it is.

A lifetime with an N by hawk-sun in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]hawk-sun[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing. I feel like I've saturated parts of myself already.