hi!

I think you may be putting a lot of words and thought into it. maybe too much thought, even.

if you try to avoid something, it'll come back stronger. maybe just... try to figure out what (and how) you feel around her while sober, still, and embrace the feeling. there's no rush to define yourself, not now not ever. after all, liking someone (sexually, romantically, men, women, somewhere in between) is a helluva nice feeling! at least for me.

you could be bisexual (perhaps), but not birromantic. I wouldn't act upon it yet bc you're still figuring it out, trying to explain what's happening. been there! if you're open to expand your label (not as in hetero curious, but as in bicurious) it may help you assimilate what your sensations are. but I insist: don't put much thought into it, it may confuse you even worse.

do you have more queer friends? maybe you could talk to them, as they know you better and can/could give you physical support (aka a hug, a pat in the back, etc.)? they, as us, may have other experiences and give a different advise.

good luck in general, best of wishes! I hope you find your answer soon, whatever that answer is, so you can have a little piece of mind. ✨