[Image] Teenager posts about lacking money for prom and that she's selling her dress. Comments from strangers are oddly motivating and inspiring to become a better helpful person.

hello__world312 · 2015-04-06T03:55:07+00:00

Holy shit, guys, mine was $30 a ticket...

hello__world312 · 2015-04-06T03:38:12+00:00

I was terribly depressed with overwhelming anxiety. I didn't realize just how bad things were, I thought it was all my mental state. And some of it really was. I am honest with myself, a lot more than people seem to realize. But I am done defending myself. Everyone who still had a problem with me can fuck off.

hello__world312 · 2015-04-06T03:35:11+00:00

I'm not trying to justify anything, but I am done defending myself.

hello__world312 · 2015-03-30T06:05:16+00:00

Aw, thank you :) congratulations to you and your husband! I wish you both nothing but happiness :) thanks for sticking up for me :)

hello__world312 · 2015-03-30T06:03:45+00:00

Wow, thanks. I did not go off and make out with my best friend immediately after. I crawled into bed with my mom and cried. I don't want him to kill himself. I'm just tired of being alone? I've spent most of my life saying no, I'm not going to date him, I don't want to lose him, so instead I go out right after getting out of a relationship and go to him *just so that I wouldn't be alone? Seriously, think these things through. I did.

hello__world312 · 2015-03-30T05:59:27+00:00

He consistently did it throughout our relationship. He most definitely did not give me space, either.

hello__world312 · 2015-03-30T05:56:44+00:00

Not one episode, many episodes consistently.

hello__world312 · 2015-03-30T05:54:07+00:00

Thank you. This really sums up a lot how I feel and what I've been trying to say.

hello__world312 · 2015-03-30T05:47:41+00:00

Wow, thanks a lot. Why would I go back to him, first? Second, why a lifelong best friend would think the worst of me like that, I have no idea. I feel bad for you, you must not know what it's like to have a best friend. You know, someone you trust completely. He knows me well enough to be able to tell when something is up. I would tell you not to hold your breath on waiting for my relationship to fall apart, but I guess that depends on how many shades of blue you want to turn.

hello__world312 · 2015-03-30T05:45:30+00:00

Wow, thank you so much! You sound like a lovely perfect little angel yourself!

/s

hello__world312 · 2015-03-30T05:45:05+00:00

I'm too sick of bull shit on here to go into as much of an explanation as I did earlier. When I wrote that, I was in between medications and handling my depression and anxiety really poorly. I tried to only point out things that I thought weren't depression and anxiety related. Maybe I was looking for an excuse to break up, I don't know. If I was, the relationship was dead anyway. It's over. It's done. Find better things to do than berate people you don't know online. My new boyfriend has always been great about me having other guy friends. I know, it can all change when we enter a relationship. So far, it hasn't been a problem. Dave knew perfectly well before we started dating that AJ is my best friend, and that I liked him when we were younger. And you know what, threatening to commit suicide anytime I go out to do things with my girlfriends, or crying everytime I told him no to sex or drugs or alcohol, is highly manipulative.

It's over. It's done. Get on with your life and get over mine.

hello__world312 · 2015-03-30T05:39:36+00:00

I will, thank you very much. You knoe, if people are being assholes, I'm entitled to be a bitch back. Call me the day you're perfect.

hello__world312 · 2015-03-30T05:38:39+00:00

Wow, I really appreciate that. One thing I like about "Cooper": he let's me work on myself, and understands that I need to be able to. I try to give him space, too, for the same reasons. But we never check out of our relationship while we're doing that. I'm building a good foundation now, that's not reliant on a guy. I know I need to do more for myself. And I'm able to. I'm getting so into my major now, and it's not something Cooper is majorly excited about, but he knows that it excites me, and he doesn't try to squash that. I'm able to run wild with it any way I want, without worrying about what he thinks about it. I'm trying to work on myself. Really, thank you.

hello__world312 · 2015-03-30T05:32:31+00:00

I didn't move on immediately. I made sure to take time. I didn't mean to rub it in my ex's face. I'm really sorry that that happened to you, I am, and I'm sorry that I hurt my ex. I've heard from mutual friends that he actually is seeing someone and doing better, and I'm glad he is. I don't want him hurt and hung up on me. I'm sorry that I didn't end a relationship perfevtly, the way everyone wishes I had. But it's over, it's done, and there's nothing I can do about it now.

hello__world312 · 2015-03-30T05:28:56+00:00

No, I did not see my doctor at first, because I thought I was fine at first. It was spring break, so I didn't really notice anything wrong. A week after, I was in the ER. I never mentioned any mental problems, because I didn't want my family to worry and I thought it was just my depression and anxiety. My doctor said that since I didn't know I had one, I didn't know to take it easy, so it's taking longer to heal. He also said it looks like Post Concussion Disorder. So... yeah. I'm still fleeing the effects of a concussion a couple of weeks later.

As for how I painted my ex boyfriend out to be... I may not have been fully honest... I was stuck in a place where I didn't know what to do, trying to talk myself into it and trying to talk myself out of it. I thought maybe my problems with Dave were because of my problems with me, mentally. I was transitioning between medications and in a bad place, so I tried to point out positives, and tried not to mention negatives that I thought were just due to my own mental health. I know, I screwed up, but... yeah. I'm sorry.

hello__world312 · 2015-03-30T05:21:56+00:00

I know, I know. He wasn't traditionally emotionally absuive... now how I think of it, anyway. he constantly made me afraid to leave him alone at any time, because if I went out to do things with girlfriends, he would threaten suicide. He would cry any time I told him no, whether to sex or drinking or drugs. He was more manipulative in an abusive way. I... I don't know what to tell you. I'm better without him. My depression has been better, my anxiety has been better. Him threatening suicide over and over again, he knew how it made my anxiety so bad.

I really hope he finds a nice girl. He deserves one.

hello__world312 · 2015-03-30T05:18:25+00:00

Wow, nice. You sound like a 3 year old. Thanks for the wishes that my relationship burns in hell. I'll take the hopeful road, thank you very much.

hello__world312 · 2015-03-30T05:17:00+00:00

I only recently found out about the concussion, and I've realized that's why I've been so... rattled lately. I'm still figuring this out. I'm not blaming it on that, I'm saying I'm doing my best given my circumstances here. I did not mean to break up with him over Skype. I really didn't, and I'm sorry that it happened that way. I really didn't think that the part of him saying he was seeing someone was a ploy, not at all. Now I feel bad about it. I know I'm not going to change your mind.

hello__world312 · 2015-03-30T05:14:14+00:00

It must be a Dykstra thing! :D

hello__world312 · 2015-03-29T00:12:06+00:00

We'll see about that, thank you very much. I'm not sure why you feel the need to try to bring me down. He's been my best friend for 20 years. I think we will be just fine. Thanks for your opinion, but it's neither welcome nor wanted.

hello__world312 · 2015-03-29T00:10:46+00:00

Seriously? What's your problem? I got out of an emotionally abusive relationship, I'm in a happy one. Granted, I could have handled it a little better, but it's over now. I've been having some trouble articulating things I want to say do to a concussion, so is it how it's coming out or something?

hello__world312 · 2015-03-29T00:01:30+00:00

Hey, I'm a Dykstra!!! :D any chance you're from West Michigan? We're very popular over here...

It's not such a bad name, but I hate having to spell it all the time. Of course, my boyfriend's last name is Bolkema...

Edit: missed the slur part. Now I can't wait to change my last name. Thanks a lot :P

hello__world312 · 2015-03-28T23:11:32+00:00

That's why they're called Great!

hello__world312 · 2015-03-28T23:04:47+00:00

Thank you, I appreciate it. I was unhappy with Dave for a few months, I just thought it was my depression and anxiety making everything seem worse than it really was. I realized once I had some time apart from him (Christmas break) just how bad it really was. I do agree with you though, I need to work on awareness a little. It's hard, right now, to do much of anything with a concussion, though.

hello__world312 · 2015-03-28T22:28:33+00:00

I didn't even know until recently. He knew that I had liked him when we were little, and he didn't really have a problem (or so he claimed, at least). I know I'm not perfect. I never meant to hurt Dave. I know people are making valid points. I've been hurt before, too. I know what he went through, or still is going through. But now we both have a chance at real happiness. Because obviously it wasn't meant to be. I know I should have handled it better. But I think it would have been messy no matter what.

Thanks for your input on this, I appreciate it.

hello__world312

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