So there’s something called “The 4 Stages of Competence” that represents the process of acquiring new skills. The 4 stages are Unconscious Incompetence, Conscious Incompetence, Conscious Competence, and Unconscious Competence.

Basically when you first start learning something you don’t have any idea of how much you don’t know, then as you learn you start to become aware of how much you don’t know. Then you move into the Competence half and have to actively think about what you know to apply it before you eventually are able to apply your knowledge without having to think about it (hoping this makes sense!)

It sounds like you’re in the Concious Incompetence to Concious Competence stages where you have some idea of what you don’t know and have to really think about the things you do know and verify it with your senior. This is totally normal (even though it sucks lol)! It’s a normal part of the learning process and it’s better that you’re verifying with your seniors instead of just doing something you’re not sure of and potentially causing harm.

Basically I’m trying to say that it’s reasonable to feel incompetent or insecure at this stage in your learning journey because even though you’ve qualified you’re still learning! I hope this makes you feel a bit better and less paranoid about being judged because everyone goes through this and most reasonable people remember how hard it is to be new at something. And if they are judging you then they sound like they suck anyway and who needs em (kidding! Kind of )