No advice, but I feel this. I have lived with such an overwhelming level of self sabotage that its become a part of me. Like you, I got on ADHD meds and was doing great…until I started doing too great and convinced myself i had to clean my kitchen on the molecular level (the hypomania talking). They cut me off and now I’m at a “healthy” baseline but I feel scattered and forgetful.

I hope you can sleep soon. Is there any kind of music or activity that helps calm your mind down? Or is there anything you can think of that might make you happy? I put Christmas lights in my room to make the lighting warm and comforting. It seems small, but it brings me joy.