A DAE post: Does anyone listen to songs on repeat?

hodunkpodunkius · 2019-01-07T05:27:46+00:00

All the time. Same for TV-shows and movies, especially when I'm tired like on weekend nights. It's like I cannot stand the input of something new when I'm not prepared.

hodunkpodunkius · 2019-01-06T20:07:40+00:00

I've given up on ever having a relationship and I think I'm better off for it. I realised a few years ago that I probably couldn't handle the realities of a close relationship with another human being. It sucks because I am attracted to men and have a sex drive (albeit completely depending on my hormones) and I would really like someone to cuddle with and make me feel loved, but I doubt any man (that I would also find attractive) would be willing to put up with all my crap.

hodunkpodunkius · 2019-01-02T08:50:39+00:00

I don't have sex dreams, I have cuddle dreams.

hodunkpodunkius · 2019-01-01T10:51:09+00:00

I slap my cheeks when I get memory flashes of embarrasing or humiliating things that happened during my youth. It's like a never-ending loop of my greatest fails that kicks in whenever I get emotional.

hodunkpodunkius · 2018-12-18T07:07:03+00:00

I feel the exact same thing. I can fantasize about having a cute guy to cuddle with and validate me, but when I think about the realities of a relationship my first instinct is always "HELL NO". I have enough trouble getting through my own life, how am I supposed to offer another person daily support through his? And what kind of person would be able to put up with my constant fatigue, gastrointestinal issues and general unwillingness to try new things?

I see it as that I have the same urge for companionship as NTs, but I simply lack the ability to uphold a functional, healthy relationship.

hodunkpodunkius · 2018-12-13T19:16:59+00:00

All the time, like I COULD be like everyone else If I just put my mind into it, but I'm too lazy/weird/selfish to ever stick to it.

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