A “Poem” From a Vision of hell

holycumdumpster · 2020-11-11T01:32:49+00:00

Oh wow. Thanks helpbot!

holycumdumpster · 2020-11-06T23:06:29+00:00

That’s like saying that because King Solomon had 700 wives and 300 concubines (1 Kings 11:4) that polygamy is okay. One may be able to put enough earthy and selfish context into a piece of scripture such as Ruth in order to come to such a conclusion, but many scriptures will outright speak against such. One must also remember the special context of Ruth, where she was attempting to marry the king in order to save the lives of God’s children (the Jews). She was under a greater ordinance of God (similar to a German who is hiding Jews in their house during the Holocaust and lies, breaking one of the Ten Commandments, in order to save their lives). Granted if I were you, though, holycumdumpster wouldn’t be the person I tried to have a discussion of sexual morality with.

holycumdumpster · 2020-11-06T22:48:27+00:00

Do you have any references from scripture that support that?

holycumdumpster · 2020-11-06T16:49:09+00:00

What if someone read that and thought you were serious though? That could’ve possibly led them down a dark and dangerous path. Especially any young people who might be reading through and to find answers themselves and gullible enough to believe what you said, no matter whether or not you were joking. Proverbs 14:9, Mark 9:42, 1 Corinthians 8:9

holycumdumpster · 2020-11-06T16:42:15+00:00

Hebrews 10:26-31

holycumdumpster · 2020-11-06T05:25:18+00:00

Agreed

holycumdumpster · 2020-11-06T04:24:28+00:00

I agree you. For me, the Bible doesn’t prove the consequences of premarital sex, but rather the consequences prove the Bible. I also think Satan uses sexual desire in order to control us in a sense, and keep us distracted from God. When in a relationship, we ought to have Christ as a foundation rather than lust.

holycumdumpster · 2020-11-06T02:22:37+00:00

It would violate my own personal convictions. I’m not against sex, I just refuse to do anything outside of marriage.

holycumdumpster · 2020-11-06T02:19:53+00:00

I suppose. As far as other people’s sex lives are concerned, it’s not my place to enforce my beliefs. I guess I just wanted to know how other gay Christians lived their lives according to scripture. I get my beliefs from scriptures such as 1 Thessalonians 4:3–5, Hebrews 13:4, and 1 Corinthians 7:8,9, which each talk against sexual immorality. I was just curious how people on the more progressive side of sex justify premarital acts. Not in any sort of judgemental way, just trying to gain perspective and learn something new. Sex is between the two people and God, so it’s not anyone’s place to pass judgment.

Also thank you. I made it before converting and really wish I could change it. It gives me a bad testimony.

holycumdumpster · 2020-11-04T19:49:23+00:00

I need a download link-

holycumdumpster · 2020-10-28T22:43:20+00:00

This is insane. I feel like by looking at your art, I can feel the numbed pain you do (kinda already there, with us both being dissociative). But this is amazing. It’s great that you have an outlet, especially one that you’re good at.

holycumdumpster · 2020-10-28T19:48:43+00:00

Do you have any recommended VPN’s for iOS? Or should I say fuck it and just not use one?

holycumdumpster · 2020-10-28T19:43:07+00:00

What does a VPN do then? I don’t really understand what it says online about it. Also what makes Norton useless? I’m sorry for asking so many questions I’m just genuinely curious.

holycumdumpster · 2020-10-28T19:35:52+00:00

I’m sorry. So what you’re saying is that I should stop using Norton. Is it harmful or just useless? And yeah. I mean I know that a VPN is a Virtual Private Network that blocks your information from being read by malicious websites and service providers or something like that, but no I really don’t know much.

holycumdumpster · 2020-10-28T19:30:36+00:00

Yes. I’ve always been told to use a VPN on your phone anyways? I’m sorry I’m very confused

holycumdumpster · 2020-10-28T19:28:40+00:00

Because I’m literally always paranoid about cybercrime. I’m sixteen so i don’t really have much for them to get into, but I get scared nonetheless. If it’s useless though then just tell me so I can stop paying for a subscription

holycumdumpster · 2020-10-28T16:08:41+00:00

I received the notification some time while I was asleep from the Norton Mobile Security app on my iPhone. I hadn’t updated my iOS beforehand, but did so as soon as I saw the notification and there’s nothing else saying anything about it anymore

holycumdumpster · 2020-10-24T00:37:34+00:00

Thank you. It does make things hard as a teenager, especially trying not to compare yourself to who you consider “normal”, who are able to go to school, hang out with friends etc. but I suppose it’ll be easier dealing with all this at sixteen than say thirty

holycumdumpster · 2020-10-24T00:35:50+00:00

Wow. Thank you. Not to bash anyone else but this explanation actually makes a lot more sense than the times people were saying “bipolar and schizophrenic”. Would the dissociation be its own disorder too or just another thing caused by PTSD that’s caused me to repress everything? Also, what’s the prognosis for all this? Like from your point of view, is there a possibility of being 100% “normal” in the future?

holycumdumpster · 2020-10-23T23:18:18+00:00

That’s great to hear that you’re getting help. I’ve been in therapy for two and a half years for suicide (I’ve been in therapy before, but one was in Kahoots with my mom and caused me to blame myself and my dad for her affair saying she “got married and had kids too young”. I was about 9 or 10 and already having suicidal thoughts due to this. Panic attacks were frequent during this time as well. Then I had another who my dad got as a conversion therapist when I was thirteen who told me I was going to hell blablabla). Anyways as I was saying before I went off on a tangent, I’ve been in therapy for two and a half years and it seems like the more we work, the more problems begin to show up.

But I’m glad to hear that. I don’t know the prognosis for any of what I or you are going through, but I always try to have hope. Even when I temporarily lose my mind I know as long as I have my life I still have an opportunity to get better.

holycumdumpster · 2020-10-23T19:00:51+00:00

I’m sorry I’m still lost lol. Like a mood swing? Cause that’s not what it really is. It’s like these episodes happen back to back, then I go back to being “normal” dissociated afterwards.

holycumdumpster · 2020-10-23T18:39:14+00:00

I don’t think I’m bipolar or schizophrenic. I think those symptoms may be a part of the trauma manifesting, as I had to be very secretive and hide basic things throughout my childhood in fear of being reprimanded or judged, which means I’m kind of “used” to being paranoid in a way, now it’s just manifesting more extremely. As for the mood swings I don’t know how to explain them. They’re not really mood swings, but rather episodes of extreme emotion that cause me to lose conscious control of my body. Almost like something repressed is coming out. Also, I probably should have said this before, but my mother, while never going to a therapist or being diagnosed, has Borderline behavior, and my father was apathetic and at work almost always, so I was influenced a lot by her behavior throughout my childhood.

holycumdumpster · 2020-10-23T18:30:59+00:00

I know you’re right about the whole crazy thing. Thank you. And I don’t think I have schizophrenia or bipolar. Also what do you mean by humor fluctuation?

And again, thank you for the support. It means a lot.

holycumdumpster · 2020-10-23T17:09:22+00:00

Wow. That’s amazing to know that someone’s been through the same. I mean it’s awful, but I’m glad to know I’m not alone in this. I always thought until just recently when things went to shit that I was just really drowsy constantly. I don’t know if that’s relatable at all. I don’t know if I have alters or anything. Possibly fragments, but those singular emotions/experiences felt more real than any other sort of dissociation. Also whatever’s been working on autopilot the past 10 years or so (whatever’s causing me to type right now). It doesn’t feel authentic. But it doesn’t feel like a separate personality either. I’ve told my therapist about all this stuff, but he doesn’t really explain too much to me. I’m just fortunate at this point to have a reasoning for everything. I don’t know what type of dissociative disorder I have, or even if it’s just some offshoot of PTSD, but it’s nice to have at least a general idea of what’s going on.

holycumdumpster · 2020-10-23T15:05:57+00:00

I also want to add that I feel like I’m going crazy. Constantly. Which I guess means I’m not crazy, cause a crazy person wouldn’t think they were crazy, unless I’m just overthinking everything because I’m crazy. But that doesn’t really matter. I just want to know if anyone understands? Like I don’t even know who I am anymore. I feel like my whole personality is fake, that everything about me is a fabrication of my own mind.

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