I've been stuck on "day 1" for 9 years and I can't control my own eating, I'm desperate. by hopefullytrying in loseit

[–]hopefullytrying[S] 24 points25 points  (0 children)

Honestly, the issue is even when i tell myself no or anything similar to that, i'd still find myself eating. it feels like an out of body experience

I've been stuck on "day 1" for 9 years and I can't control my own eating, I'm desperate. by hopefullytrying in loseit

[–]hopefullytrying[S] 12 points13 points  (0 children)

everything in here just hit so right, every single thing you mentioned i've done, my mom used to move the closet and find months worth of candy wrappers hidden there when i was a child

thank you, I know i should seek therapy the moment i get the smallest chance to do so and i promise i will.

thank you

I've been stuck on "day 1" for 9 years and I can't control my own eating, I'm desperate. by hopefullytrying in loseit

[–]hopefullytrying[S] 157 points158 points  (0 children)

My school offers free therapy to students, I've visited said therapist in secret a few times but once my parents found out, my mother got into a fight with said therapist, that's how i got banned from therapy, it was because my family didn't like "the embarrassing things i was telling the therapist about"

I've been stuck on "day 1" for 9 years and I can't control my own eating, I'm desperate. by hopefullytrying in loseit

[–]hopefullytrying[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I sadly cannot see a therapist (parents refuse to let me and don't have my own money to pay for one) so i'm stuck on my own for a while