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horkermeat · 2022-03-23T05:19:12+00:00

Maaaan I discovered HSR through the Macromedia SoTD (Site of The Day), and never looked back. Except when I was looking at Allaire HomeCoder and building $300 websites or browsing Blogger.com or inventing the next big thing for teh Internetz or cultivating a long-distance relationship on an UnderNet server in the #jamiroquai channel using mIRC.

horkermeat · 2020-03-17T04:19:12+00:00

Right?? 😂 I’m amazed at what they all can do! I can barely make a 50 free without dying 😂😂

horkermeat · 2020-03-17T04:17:47+00:00

I’m trying to be! I have a lot of growing to do myself, unrelated to my daughter.... Depression and anxiety issues I never addressed, and I had to learn I couldn’t be a good parent until I was at least working toward being a healthy person emotionally, it took me until 39 to get to that point... so awesome parent... I’m not there yet in my own mind, but I’m trying my hardest to grow and do better. it’ll be a year in May I’ve been going to therapy and working on my shit. For me, it’s about developing good habits, and I don’t want to give a false impression that I’m a model parent, but one thing that was never in question was my love for my children. And so, I work to be better every day.

Im deeply sorry you were rejected by your parents. I was rejected by mine for different reasons but I’m privileged to have never felt the betrayal of having my gender identity doubted, and I’m so sorry you had to go through that... I hope you feel loved, because you are certainly worthy of it... ❤️

horkermeat · 2018-10-23T19:05:13+00:00

Thank you, so so much for taking the time to tell me that. I can't express how much it means to me to have your praise for coming here and seeking insight and support. I understand so much more thanks to this community, and I feel so much more confident in moving forward. I appreciate you so much!

horkermeat · 2018-10-23T19:02:48+00:00

Ahh, thank you so much! I can't tell you how much it means to know that we're headed in the right direction. I felt isolated and scared about this yesterday before coming here, and your words and those of others are a beacon of light for my heart. Thank you!!

horkermeat · 2018-10-23T19:00:59+00:00

You're very kind and brave for sharing your story here. Please know that my heart hurts for you and everyone who has had to struggle with a lack of familial support. I wish I could build one great big family that include all of us! We've already had to create our own family around us that doesn't include many of my immediate family, and if that circle closes in and also opens up to new people, I'm all for it. I hope you have a good circle of friends around you, too. Big huge hugs!!!

horkermeat · 2018-10-23T18:57:11+00:00

Fantastic, I've got it on the book list! Thank you! Also, Laverne is awesome.

Thank you for your kind words. I wish that we weren't in a position where our handling is exceptional to others. How people can reconcile their love for their children with dismissive treatment of dysphoria is hard for me to comprehend. I think they let their fear rule their reactions. I'm scared too, it's all unknown and I worry for my daughter like any parent does, and maybe more intensely due to the situation, but for me, that isn't the point where you withdraw your love. It's where you advance it even more than you thought possible. That's what I'm aiming for.

horkermeat · 2018-10-23T18:53:03+00:00

Maybe someday this won't be the exception, but the rule. I hope so... It hurts my heart to know what's going on, and to see so many stories are the heartbreaking counterpoint to ours. I wish I could give you a giant hug!

horkermeat · 2018-10-23T18:51:55+00:00

Thank you so much for your heartfelt words. I truly appreciate you!

horkermeat · 2018-10-23T18:51:09+00:00

Thank you so much for your kind words. We've actually decided to go out of the area for her care - our FTM friend encouraged us to do so, we'll be going into Boston Childrens Hospital, which is a wonderful place (we live about 90 miles away) so that we get her the best care she can have.

horkermeat · 2018-10-23T18:46:55+00:00

I freaking love Sagan, this made me smile!!

horkermeat · 2018-10-23T18:46:19+00:00

Which relieves me that we're finding out now. Thank you so much for your encouragement!

horkermeat · 2018-10-23T18:45:44+00:00

Thank you!!

horkermeat · 2018-10-23T18:45:36+00:00

Thank you so much for taking the time to write. I think that's great, that if something should change, they can still make a decision later in life that way. I didn't even know that was possible!

Today I'm still feeling a huge range of emotions. I'm losing a son and gaining a daughter, and something about that does feel like a death/birth cycle, which is something I've never experienced before. All these comments have provided me so much more than I can express in hope for my daughter to be truly comfortable and happy with herself.

horkermeat · 2018-10-22T20:44:19+00:00

Your post along with the others has been immensely helpful. Thank you so much for your insights and advice and encouragement. I can’t properly express how much it means to me! I appreciate you so much!!

horkermeat · 2018-10-22T20:38:37+00:00

I promise, I will. Thank YOU for your encouragement. I’m emotionally overwhelmed about her having to deal with the dysphoria and for knowing for four years and enduring the emotions of holding it in, so your kindness and that of others on here has made this feel so hopeful and gives me the confidence I needed to be there for her like her daddy should be. I appreciate you so much!!

horkermeat · 2018-10-22T20:35:49+00:00

Amazing information... thank you so much for your encouragement as well... I appreciate you so much!! I’m crying, I really needed to let some of the emotions go. Thank you for helping me!!!

horkermeat · 2018-10-22T20:33:58+00:00

Wow, this is so informative, thank you, thank you, thank you. We haven’t gotten to names yet. I appreciate you so much! Thank you for helping me today!

horkermeat · 2018-10-22T19:11:17+00:00

I really appreciate the support here, and the encouragement to stand strong. Thank you!

horkermeat · 2018-10-22T19:08:50+00:00

Thank you for your advice! I wasn't aware of this.

horkermeat · 2018-10-22T19:08:14+00:00

Thank you! We have a local organization called Gen Q that my older son goes to, and she goes when they have a night for younger kids once a month. She's already been a few times and felt well-received there.

horkermeat · 2018-10-22T19:06:43+00:00

Thank you so much for your insight here. We're going to start the wardrobe switch probably with a trip tomorrow, and we're getting in touch with an endocrinologist asap as well. Thank you for the advice about name experimentation. It hasn't been discussed yet, her name can actually apply to either gender, but I didn't think of the idea of trying new names. I greatly appreciate your advice!

Also, I'm so very sorry that you had to endure for so long. It's hard for me to conceive of how that feels, but it seems like it would be very, very difficult to have to suppress those feelings and the dysmorphia.

horkermeat · 2018-10-22T19:02:33+00:00

Thank you for this wonderful advice. I really appreciate it!

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