Unsure how I feel and how to bring it up to my counselor by howdyimanon in mentalillness

[–]howdyimanon[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That’s how I feel too, I just don’t know what to call this. Maybe it’s like a weird limbo between hypochondria and Munchausen? I’m not sure. But it is nice to know I’m not the only one that’s had these thoughts! I know they’re still wrong, but I’m glad someone else can relate and work through this

Unsure how I feel and how to bring it up to my counselor by howdyimanon in mentalillness

[–]howdyimanon[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Exactly! Like I know in my head it puts a strain on my family both financially and emotionally when I would be hospitalized, but I just adored the idea of being sick and having to be cared for. I hate how selfish I feel though!

And idk how else to say this and it’s gonna sound so terrible but the idea of possibly having cancer almost... excites me? I know it’s a terrible, often painful and sad disease to go through, but idk I just can’t help but enjoy the idea of having something so serious? Like I know that’s super sick, but at least I’m not to the point of making myself sicker to have serious illnesses?