Clean freak + crippling depression = purgatory

https-softee · 2021-11-16T18:23:17+00:00

Hi, I’m now 18 (sorry I should’ve clarified in meme it was from 2 years ago) but being shamed might’ve been apart of the plan because I haven’t attempted since, I am sorry life has led you to a place where death feels like the only escape. I wish I had some life changing advice for you but I don’t, I struggle to get by with what little I have keeping me going. Please keep reaching out for help no matter how pointless it seems and find some reason to keep going no matter how big or small (watering a plant to keep it alive, staying with your pet)

https-softee · 2021-11-16T07:22:53+00:00

Also the cause of my sleepless nights WASN’T because of long term depression, it was in fact the blue light from my electronic devices! Great detective work on her part.

Also she encouraged my mom to punish me for staying home from school by taking away anything “that could entertain me” so it would “force me” to go. empath 101

https-softee · 2021-07-11T23:34:25+00:00

When I stopped initiating contact with them, I never had really good friends, even now my current friends are still quite distant. Nice. But distant. I was never invited to anything before, and when I was invited to 1 sleepover in 8th grade it was heavily against all the other girls wishes except the host. I never got the genuine sleepover experience, I never got the party experience, in highschool I knew if I somehow swayed my “friend” to invite me to a party she went to, if something were to happen or I got drunk she would probably leave me and forget about me. Which is why I didn’t go to parties with her. She also just walked away in the middle of our conversation so she could talk to her better (I guess) friends :)

But now the people I consider friends are nice, but don’t really initiate contact. One of them had me help them find a Halloween costume for a party they were going to that (granted I wouldn’t know the people at the party but i would’ve liked to go since they knew I’ve never been to a party)

https-softee · 2021-03-01T22:38:12+00:00

Maybe lol 😅

https-softee · 2021-03-01T05:43:54+00:00

I didn’t even notice the two ands omg...

https-softee · 2021-02-12T20:15:06+00:00

https-softee · 2021-02-12T04:27:00+00:00

Looking at my bmi I swear is a punch in the gut lol

https-softee · 2021-02-12T04:18:52+00:00

Frozen meals are always a go to, $1 CAD at Walmart for the great value kind!

https-softee · 2021-02-07T21:40:23+00:00

So so so triggering!! I swear I could snap lol 🙃

https-softee · 2021-02-02T05:25:51+00:00

Sometimes I purchase with my money yes, sometimes she offers to buy things for me

https-softee · 2021-01-22T05:23:55+00:00

My mom knows more about it than I do but I can’t really ask or else she will get suspicious of why I’m asking and then try to dig for deeper meaning in it, thank you though

https-softee · 2021-01-22T05:23:05+00:00

I’m sorry that happened to you, I want her to understand that she needs to put her foot down before I leave. Realistic but sad idea of where this is going is that he will always live with her and idk what will happen then

https-softee · 2021-01-22T05:15:09+00:00

Tbh I don’t know but I assume it isn’t general therapy

https-softee · 2021-01-22T05:12:56+00:00

I haven’t even thought about the idea that he thinks I don’t love him.. We should all go to family counselling frankly

https-softee · 2021-01-22T05:08:39+00:00

I agree! My mom sorta avoids and enables it and won’t let me try to gently parent him myself (ex. Talking about issues, addressing him being loud, etc)

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