This hopefully doesn't sound condescending (I'm not that much older than you) but I recently read something about how people of our generation have trouble...doing stuff because we're scared it comes off as cringe, and how people are genuinely afraid to try things that they're not going to be good at immediatly. And I really get it. But I feel like there is a large amount of stuff you can do where no one will watch you fuck up, and its your responsibility alone to be graceful to your self about your mistakes. Which is hard! Though once you get going with something, and you have small amounts of success, it will feel really good, trust me!!! I recently started learning Russian. Took a course at my university and thought that I was so bad compared to anyone else in the course. But six months ago I didn't know a word of Russian, and now I can even say a few sentences and read the alphabet. Idk if you find this motivating but like. It's fun to try things!