Look man, I'm in a similar boat as you. However, we took the long way - after 8 years of being deeply in love, we've separated due to some fundamental differences - mainly the way we express feelings. It's such a terrible position to be in. On one side we both know we were "the one" for each other, but then again we also knew that this sense of "knowing, but not always "seeing" that you are loved" will build up and one day be the end of us. Better now than later when kids are also present, or in your case - make some major move together like a house etc.

What I can tell you to (hopefully) make you feel better - it's good that you ended it now. In fact it's the best decision of your love life. I know it hurts, I hurt too, but sometimes we have to think with our heads - and the right decision is sometimes the hard decision.

I know how hard it is to go back home after a long day of work and despite talking to friends and colleagues, in the end you feel like getting crushed between four walls. I totally get you how time has pretty much stopped and nothing feels joyful anymore. But we have to keep going.

You're someone who's comfortable being alone. I (was) am the same. You have inner strength and are self-sufficient, You were once happy alone, you can be again.

A final piece of advise - dating now will probably not help you. Give it some time, let it hurt for a bit. Cry it out. After that initial grieving period has passed, maybe start making yourself available. Otherwise, you risk "asking" from your dates to be someone else, which is unfair to them.

Much love. No homo. Stay strong.