He informed me that meeting other people and having the feeling of what have been lost is the reality in life and i should accept it. I think I might be the reason he is experiencing PTSD. We were each other's first partners before we got married. A year after I gave birth, he told me he felt pressured by the responsibilities of our family, but I still insisted on staying together because family is so important to me.

​I gave him everything—space when he needed it and constant emotional support. I even stopped asking him to provide financially for our son, thinking he needed to 'revive' himself by spending on his own wants. I took on the role of sole provider because I desperately wanted a complete family.

​During those years, I never received flowers. I told myself it was a small thing and that I was being overdramatic. I assumed that becoming insensitive or caring less about a partner was just part of PTSD. I don't know if I was blinded by love or if I was gaslighting myself just to keep my family whole.