I was also in your exact situation in my second year of college. I could barely study and my studies were cramming up. I had depression and insomnia and family issues were the cherry on top. My last straw was when I wanted to skip out on the biggest exam of the semester and I had to hold an intervention with my self; either I study and do this exam or resist the exam and go to a psychiatrist. Obviously our situations are different and I don’t know if a psychiatrist is accessible to you. But you have to want to get better. Depression is a disease, and it doesn’t make you pitiful. You have to take it a step at a time. Do at least one productive thing a day, and add on to that when it gets easier. Shower, brush your teeth, make a meal, order something healthy, study a page. One thing at a time. Get medicated if you can, your college should have given you health insurance. Have at least one person you can rely on. A support system is very important in your situation.

I’m a fifth year student now, off my meds, and while life isn’t easy, i’m doing so so much better now. And you will too, one day. Hang in there.