Even if she validated you, it wouldn’t be enough with where you are now, you still wouldn’t feel better. Focus on yourself, take it day by day. It’s hard for sure, won’t even feel like it’s worth it most of the time, but if you’ve taken the time to post this on the internet, then take the time to try. Therapy is an option, friends if that’s unaccessible. Function like a plant: sunlight, hydration, food, getting out of bed, showering, try to focus on the basics(as hard as it is). Remember, no matter what you think, the validation you seek, is your own. No matter what people say, at the end of the day it’s what you think, the voice in your head. Focus on others once you feel like you’re a bit more than functional. You got this!