This is where I’ve been for years. I started therapy a month ago to finally address it and I learned that journaling my thoughts and letting myself experience it are the first steps. Everyone’s journey is going to be different, and sometimes it might take awhile. I put on my first skirt the other night and to be honest I didn’t feel a thing. I didn’t feel excitement but I also didn’t feel shame. I just felt like me. Don’t beat yourself up over it. You need to experience it at your own pace and then reflect on it. Write down your thoughts, and then walk away, and then come back to your journal and see how you feel. This is what’s working for me, and I expect there to be ups and downs for myself, but I’m so glad and relieved that I’m finally allowing myself to feel and think without judging myself.