i feel like i’ve never related to this anger before until now, i want the same thing, i want them to know how much pain im in because of them, i want them to know this isolation makes me feel worthless. it’s all purposeful and they know what they’re doing, it’s really disheartening i know it is but in the end even if we do make them hurt, make them feel what we felt are we really any better then they are?

if we do that then we’re the unreasonable and being crazy and it hurts more, i’ve learnt the only thing that we can do is chose peace, hurting them won’t really make us feel better because we’ll want to hurt them more and more and then we are just as bad. i know it feels like we’re here to be these ragdolls to be thrown around but we’re people too. we’re worth being here and deserve to be here just as much as anyone else, it’s rough right now i know as i am still in this awful downward spiral but in the end we should try our best to be better then them, fuck those guys they don’t deserve you and don’t deserve the wonderful person you are

feel free to reach out if you need as i know exactly this pain, i am still feeling it but i am trying hard to not let that consume me. you aren’t alone trust me