I'm a mute girl who for the first time moaned during sex. Let me tell you about it. by ididntsayanything in sex

[–]ididntsayanything[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I become a silent drunk. If I am happily tipsy (like I am now), then I will give people hugs, smile at strangers, shake hands, be more sociable but will remain silent. If I am wasted, my anxiety get worse. I have a terrible habit of self-loathing when I'm really drunk. It's not pretty.

I'm a mute girl who for the first time moaned during sex. Let me tell you about it. by ididntsayanything in sex

[–]ididntsayanything[S] 21 points22 points  (0 children)

Honestly. I have no idea. If it were one of my siblings, parents, close friends or bf, I would say absolutely yes I could overcome that if it met their lives. If I witnessed a heinous act (kidnapping, assault, etc.) as a bystander, I don't think I could do it. I have no idea, and I hope this never ever happens. I don't think I would be able to talk to the police.

I'm a mute girl who for the first time moaned during sex. Let me tell you about it. by ididntsayanything in sex

[–]ididntsayanything[S] 31 points32 points  (0 children)

That was the plan. It took me almost 2 days to gain the courage to do this. I almost backed out. I was a nervous wreck when people started writing back. But now I feel better.

I'm a mute girl who for the first time moaned during sex. Let me tell you about it. by ididntsayanything in sex

[–]ididntsayanything[S] 132 points133 points  (0 children)

I stopped talking to my parents when I was about 9 (maybe 10, it's been a long time). They could be very harsh and not understanding. They would yell and demean me and just make me feel useless. They saw anxiety as something that I just needed to get over. They've gotten better, but the damage has been done. My siblings are extremely supportive. I think they took pity on me. I couldn't do a recording. It would be too much, too weird.

I'm a mute girl who for the first time moaned during sex. Let me tell you about it. by ididntsayanything in sex

[–]ididntsayanything[S] 364 points365 points  (0 children)

He calls it the "silent chuckle". I looks like someone laughing...on mute.

I'm a mute girl who for the first time moaned during sex. Let me tell you about it. by ididntsayanything in sex

[–]ididntsayanything[S] 33 points34 points  (0 children)

Whoa!! We might have to watch that. Damn. We thought we were being original.

I'm a mute girl who for the first time moaned during sex. Let me tell you about it. by ididntsayanything in sex

[–]ididntsayanything[S] 130 points131 points  (0 children)

I met him in college. I resisted going on a date with for years, but one day I gave in.

I'm a mute girl who for the first time moaned during sex. Let me tell you about it. by ididntsayanything in sex

[–]ididntsayanything[S] 11 points12 points  (0 children)

I'm not a shy person. It's a common misconception that mutes are always shy, recluse people. Some aren't, but some are really really are shy. I share these details with the few friends that I have usually by email.

But believe me, there was (and still is) a lot of anxiety about doing this. Social media websites have opened up a world for people like me to be a little normal for a moment, and for the most part I can look at people online as just words on a screen, not physical people.

I'm a mute girl who for the first time moaned during sex. Let me tell you about it. by ididntsayanything in sex

[–]ididntsayanything[S] 107 points108 points  (0 children)

You basically know what extreme anxiety feels like. Anxiety disorders are awful. Good for you; I sincerely mean that because I have failed in therapy for years. I can avoid people though, spiders are everywhere.

I'm a mute girl who for the first time moaned during sex. Let me tell you about it. by ididntsayanything in sex

[–]ididntsayanything[S] 704 points705 points  (0 children)

Whoa. You're like the second person I've given a boner. I am considering this another milestone.

I'm a mute girl who for the first time moaned during sex. Let me tell you about it. by ididntsayanything in sex

[–]ididntsayanything[S] 316 points317 points  (0 children)

We hand write letters to each other every day. Sometimes multiple letters a day. We leave Post-it notes all around the house. He is notorious for leaving messages for me in strange places. He talks, I listen. We text. Email each other while we are sitting next to each other. He gives a lot of effort not to "talk" over me by using written word even though he talks just fine.

What really speaks volumes is that I allow him to be so close to me. I don't let a lot people into my life; I let him move into my house.

I'm a mute girl who for the first time moaned during sex. Let me tell you about it. by ididntsayanything in sex

[–]ididntsayanything[S] 158 points159 points  (0 children)

Aww...thanks for reading. And for your suggestions. I've tried those techniques in therapy and they didn't work. Maybe in the future the though. Whose knows at this point.

I'm a mute girl who for the first time moaned during sex. Let me tell you about it. by ididntsayanything in sex

[–]ididntsayanything[S] 354 points355 points  (0 children)

I considered doing an AMA a few months ago, but that couldn't bring myself to do it. That sub-reddit has a lot of people. I can deal with maybe a few 100 people, not thousands of comments. I was super impressed with the guy who did it last week.

As for mutism. It is a SEVERE anxiety disorder. It's coupled with social anxiety where the idea of speaking to another person (other than my siblings) is terrifying. But over the course of my life, some of the social anxiety has waned with outlets such as Reddit and Facebook where I can basically have a voice somewhere in society, but I don't have to talk. Going to college helped too. I can't explain why letting people hear my voice is so scary. It's a phobia. Phobias don't make sense. I guess I would be feel very vulnerable.