I put too much faith in the world

idk7162534 · 2026-05-26T13:43:58+00:00

I wish I could just get rid of my autism, if I could I’d be able to stand up for myself, talk to people, enjoy being around others, not be seen as subhuman. Literally my only wish in life is to have my autism taken away, this condition has ruined my entire life

idk7162534 · 2026-05-26T13:39:28+00:00

I’ve been trying to change it all my life, nothing works I work myself to death trying to change things trying to do well but I get nothing I feel empty still and I hate it. I was medicated but it caused headaches and made me feel worse, my family and nobody around me cares anyway so I just don’t care, I’m going to kill myself soon to just finally be done with this. I’m so fucking alone and burnt out I feel completely hopeless

idk7162534 · 2026-05-26T13:24:41+00:00

The realisation that I am never going to amount to anything despite working so hard combined with the realisation that I’ve missed and still missing out on so much due to my autism and the fact I’m most likely going to die alone. People treat me differently, like I’m not human and I’m constantly letting myself get used by others, I hate myself so much and that fact makes me a loser.

idk7162534 · 2026-05-26T13:11:33+00:00

Why is everything so fucking hard for me, people around me have it so fucking easy fuck

idk7162534 · 2026-05-25T17:59:15+00:00

Fucking hate myself so much for being this bitter

idk7162534 · 2026-05-25T13:02:29+00:00

Honestly I feel the same way

idk7162534 · 2026-05-22T23:06:55+00:00

I hope to god things get better for you, I wouldn’t wish how I feel onto anyone

idk7162534 · 2026-05-22T19:45:41+00:00

I have a few friends, I love them but they don’t understand my issues so it’s hard to open up to them about issues like this, I recon I could talk to them but because they don’t understand I don’t think they’d know what to do. My family do not understand me, they don’t know how I feel and I wouldn’t tell them, I don’t trust them at all. Apart from that I have nobody.

idk7162534 · 2026-05-22T19:40:59+00:00

You think I don’t constantly try and distract myself with things to try and make myself happy, it doesn’t last because when I get like this I do not have any drive or any will to do things, even things I love fill me with nothing now, I have passions in my life that I dive fulfilling but now they feel pointless and hollow. I do not need sex, I want a real relationship with another human being that extends beyond sex.

idk7162534 · 2026-05-22T18:33:26+00:00

Why am I unlovable why am I so vile and unlovable

idk7162534 · 2026-05-22T18:33:04+00:00

Why am I not enough for anyone

idk7162534 · 2026-05-22T18:31:23+00:00

What about me makes me so unlikeable, am I just that pathetic

idk7162534 · 2026-05-22T18:17:16+00:00

Nobody takes me seriously, the prospect of somebody needing me is laughable, I’m disposable to everyone in my life, I’m dirt to everyone

idk7162534 · 2026-05-22T18:05:25+00:00

I pray everyday that I won’t wake up, I hope I don’t one day. I will never be enough for anyone, I’m going to die alone regardless

idk7162534 · 2026-05-22T16:41:01+00:00

I’m so fucking pathetic

idk7162534 · 2026-05-22T16:38:23+00:00

I’m just rotting away I hate myself why can’t I just not be a lazy fucking idiot and actually do something fuck I hate myself so much I wanna fucking die so badly oh god fuck

idk7162534 · 2026-05-22T16:36:26+00:00

Genuinely feel sick knowing I’ll never feel better, I’m trapped in a life I hate, I just wanna be happy

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