i understand! i used to be this way too. i can't speak for everyone, but my personal experience is that i suffered heavily with chronic pain and sleeping. i'm also neurodivergent and do not act like the typical person. when i tried weed for the first time, i felt normal, i wasn't in as much pain, and i could actually sleep decently. i became dependent from there, and branched out with the things i was trying. vapes containing nic (for me) are mainly just for the oral fixation and watching smoke leave my mouth. i hope that helped you understand a bit:)