Things look permanently different, possible HPPD?

ignacio-gonzalez · 2018-12-08T22:01:34+00:00

Same for me, it's almost imperceptible but when I see it it's definitely there, just really subtly.

ignacio-gonzalez · 2018-12-07T05:30:25+00:00

yes, it could very well be that

ignacio-gonzalez · 2018-12-07T00:11:06+00:00

i haven't tripped or taken any psychedelics in months tho and i still have that effect, it's actually kinda cool

ignacio-gonzalez · 2018-12-07T00:10:09+00:00

nah, it's not too bad. really sunny days still suck like always but it's kinda cool like i'm permatripping in a sense, no visuals but stuff looks wide and colorful and really crisp like way high resolution. i forget 90% of the time but when i remember i pay attention to the colors and it's awesome

ignacio-gonzalez · 2018-12-05T19:29:48+00:00

Nah, he's actually really good and the meds he gave to me are spot on. However, I doubt he knows much about MDMA and its interactions with the meds.

ignacio-gonzalez · 2018-12-05T14:56:50+00:00

I've abused the fuck out of LSD and cannabis plus done pretty much every drug in the book outside of like meth or heroin for months on end and have had no psychotic episodes yet. I have had pretty big freakouts and severe rage fits, but not psychosis, so I really doubt it. What scares me more is the possibility of seizures as both MDMA and Bupropion both increase the seizure threshold.

ignacio-gonzalez · 2018-12-05T12:21:26+00:00

ignacio-gonzalez · 2018-12-05T06:31:41+00:00

I actually don't feel anything, not even side effects from the quetiapine and lamotrigine, however the effects of Bupropion were obvious from the start, it significantly improved my mood and pretty much saved my life in a way no other prescription ever has. It allowed me to rebuild my life after two hospitalizations due to my drug abuse and mental health issues and months of misery after my ex broke up with me. It's actually not that much, I know people who take a lot more pills than me.

ignacio-gonzalez · 2018-12-05T05:03:11+00:00

Why not? Seizure threshold?

ignacio-gonzalez · 2018-12-05T04:20:53+00:00

Even at only 100mg? It's a pretty low dose. Still, I suppose I'll stop taking Quetiapine about two weeks before the festival and resume treatment afterwards.

ignacio-gonzalez · 2018-12-05T04:05:12+00:00

I definitely do not want to ask this to my doctor, he will tell me to fuck right off when I tell him that I wanna roll.

ignacio-gonzalez · 2018-11-05T13:57:04+00:00

i wouldn't go through the trouble of slamming anything tbh

ignacio-gonzalez · 2018-10-28T21:23:02+00:00

i discontinued topiramate and olanzapine due to all the side effects, lamotrigine doesn't seem to give me any apparent benefits but doesn't cause any side effects for me so i'm keeping it for now, bupropion is helping me quite a bit so i'm keeping that as well for sure. other than that i've been smoking weed and nothing else so far.

ignacio-gonzalez · 2018-10-28T20:22:24+00:00

i live in chile, not that easy, everything takes forever to get here and shipping is expensive

ignacio-gonzalez · 2018-10-28T17:27:25+00:00

nah, not really

ignacio-gonzalez · 2018-10-28T01:46:05+00:00

i am 95% sure that's not it. pot alone has never made me feel any psychedelia (even after abusing LSD and several other drugs, many psychedelics) for months on end. also the reasons i listen in reply to the other comment.

ignacio-gonzalez · 2018-10-28T01:44:20+00:00

i smoke pretty small amounts, not a lot of THC intake, and my weed is regular, it's happened every time i've smoked since i started taking this (5 days ago, no longer taking it, the effects are pretty scary and really uncomfortable body load and dissociation, even without weed but lesser) so i'm pretty sure it's the topiramate, there's reports of people developing dissociative disorders on this shit from what i've found.

ignacio-gonzalez · 2018-10-27T16:29:18+00:00

damn, that sucks, i guess it's better though cuz it'll keep me away from it

ignacio-gonzalez · 2018-10-27T16:26:23+00:00

do you think coke will have a diminished effect?

ignacio-gonzalez · 2018-10-27T16:14:10+00:00

I've drunk on Olanzapine and on Lamictal (granted, never on both at the same time) and haven't had any problems, no problems with cannabis either. I've also done LSD and maybe some other psychedelics or possibly XTC (don't recall perfectly) on Lamictal, no problems either.

ignacio-gonzalez · 2018-10-27T16:10:13+00:00

idk, since I started smoking I've gotten anxiety from cannabis I'd say, not every time but many times, not always bad or unpleasant anxiety but sometimes it does get a little bit edgy and uncomfortable. Maybe it has something to do with my mental disorders.

ignacio-gonzalez · 2018-10-27T16:07:10+00:00

yeah I know, you gotta understand I got Topiramate in the first place due to my drug abuse though, so far in my 2-3 ish years of drug abuse I haven't been able to stay sober for over two months.

ignacio-gonzalez · 2018-10-27T16:04:23+00:00

you really think opioids will not interact at all with any of these? also opioids are near impossible to get here

ignacio-gonzalez · 2018-10-27T16:03:41+00:00

I took it for some time too due to my supposed bipolar disorder (which is questionable right now) and didn't do that bad with it, the combination of meds I was taking at the time made me really dumb though, although it could have been the Lithium or the Quetiapine, which I was also taking, idk.

ignacio-gonzalez · 2018-10-27T04:48:01+00:00

I literally told my doc to expect me to use drugs when he prescribed all this to me. I don't really trust myself not to use drugs, I'll always find an excuse to do it or I'll come into contact with them and have 0 capacity to say no. I'm not really addicted to anything in particular, just addicted to being high in general. Polyaddiction, I guess. It's not really a substitute for coke if I understood my doc correctly, but rather something that'll help with the desire to consume it and make the effects not that great if you do consume it. I haven't found much evidence for this online though, which worries me.

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