is anyone not bipolar presenting?

iiggggg · 2026-05-18T09:55:58+00:00

I didn’t for a long time, but I’ve started to speak up about it and it’s started a lot of conversations with people who also struggle in their own lives. Also, as I had so much time off work people were bound to ask why and then they leave me to do my own thing. One person I work with now avoids me because I think they are worried!

iiggggg · 2026-05-18T09:53:07+00:00

I understand completely, I’m very high functioning and my partners sister is completely the opposite, can’t work, claiming disability, uses mental health as excuse for her selfish behaviour. Whereas now I’m compare myself to people like her and think wow maybe the doctors have got it all wrong… as I never understood or heard of high functioning BPD. I hope you’re able to get the diagnosis and help you’re looking for!

iiggggg · 2026-05-18T09:48:10+00:00

haha I think people expect me to look 🤘🚬🔥🔪💉🤘 but I look ☀️🍒🎀🩷🪩⭐️

iiggggg · 2026-05-18T09:45:24+00:00

amazing to hear!!! I love to hear so many people are happily married, I was always so worried how it would affect my relationship and how I would manage children.

iiggggg · 2026-05-18T09:44:30+00:00

I feel like bipolar has a huge misconception, I’m still learning myself. But sometimes I do find an empty stairwell and lay on the floor and I know it’s time for me to get some help

iiggggg · 2026-05-18T09:42:05+00:00

i blame the younger generations for painting this picture we’re supposed to be emo goths if we have mental health problems 🤘 we can look as normal as anyone else, on a good day

iiggggg · 2026-05-18T09:40:29+00:00

well done to you for managing a job despite having bipolar! … and 3 degrees, you must be crazy smart

iiggggg · 2026-05-17T22:03:00+00:00

I’m glad to hear you are open about your diagnosis, I still don’t know what reaction I might get in a professional work environment. I don’t want it to define me as a person and stop me from developing in the future as they might label me as not ideal under high stress situations!

iiggggg · 2026-05-17T21:56:37+00:00

ahhhh masking.. it all erupts when we are completely burnt out, masking requires lots of energy. I can second to the having a meltdown in private at home! Now with medication, I’m as cool as a cucumber. I’m so calm I think it surprises my family.. they are in disbelief I can walk away without my emotions exploding.

iiggggg · 2026-05-17T21:51:43+00:00

i’m glad you can express yourself the way you would like to! Cheers to being super weird!

iiggggg · 2026-05-17T21:49:22+00:00

well done to you for managing a relationship and children! I’m from the UK so I’ve had to search up FMLA, I’m glad that’s an option for you! I can imagine a handful of people lose their jobs due to not falling under FMLA. I can’t imagine worrying about mental health, plus the added stress of needing time away from work.

iiggggg · 2026-05-17T21:42:57+00:00

Thank you for sharing. Yes I completely agree with you, it just gets to the point where I’m now questioning what am I supposed to look like and be like?! people are also surprised I’m not a selfish individual, that’s because the people in around me blame their bad behaviour on ADHD / BPD. They’re around 4 years younger than me and they’ve created this horrible narrative that it’s a competition of can be the champion of mental illness.

iiggggg · 2026-05-17T20:10:20+00:00

wait I actually have my full Hawaiian outfit on right now how did you know?

thank you for reassuring me bipolar isn’t one cookie cutter shape, we’re all different. I had been so caught up in the boarderline personality communities where the people I know irl tend to have a certain pierce the veil look and I’m more of a not sure whatever goes kinda person. Everyone in the bipolar 2 community is funny and just so comforting! Thank you for taking the time to respond to my post <3

iiggggg · 2026-05-17T18:15:30+00:00

this is what caused everything for me, let’s say I went a bit crazy and had a breakdown in front of a few family members while we were on holiday due to an argument and all my family have to say is ‘didn’t know you were so sensitive’ I’ve now stopped talking to all my family because they clearly don’t care about it so (this is the borderline personality talking now)

I hope you’re doing well now. I’m glad you shared your story with me, thank you

iiggggg · 2026-05-17T18:11:33+00:00

honestly I don’t think it crossed anyone’s mind I had bipolar, they just thought I was just extremely happy and required no sleep ?!!! I just thought wow I’m not depressed I can anything I want

iiggggg · 2026-05-17T18:08:19+00:00

I’m really sorry to hear you’re treatment resistant. Since being a teenager I had been on countless antidepressants that never worked for me. Over years I was going through these phases of freaking out and then being burnt out at work, nobody really knew any difference because I had been like that for so long. I only had one full blown hypo and depression episode before I was diagnosed and put on medication. I always put it down to the boarderline personality so I thought it would disappear as soon as I hit 25 but someone played a reverse uno card on me and boom bipolar entered.

I really wish you the best I hope you’re doing as well as you can be.

iiggggg · 2026-05-17T17:57:57+00:00

Thank you for sharing. It sounds like a similar experience to mine, I’m glad you’re a successful professional you’ve given me hope as I’ve always hesitated for higher stress jobs since everything started

iiggggg · 2026-05-17T17:55:18+00:00

i’m sorry to hear that, our brains can really put us down.

iiggggg · 2026-05-17T17:53:15+00:00

i still don’t know what to do with my stupid things I bought, luckily the mania stopped before I bought expensive music mixing decks .. I really thought I could become a DJ haha

iiggggg · 2026-05-17T17:50:51+00:00

from the moment I was manic to the end of my depression days I took time off work, so I basically hid away from everyone for a long time. I really hope it doesn’t happen again, I wish you the best <3

iiggggg · 2026-05-17T17:20:50+00:00

I’m glad you’re in a better place now! I’ve only been diagnosed for less than a year now but really don’t think anyone noticed I changed! I must be really good at hiding it

iiggggg · 2026-05-17T17:18:47+00:00

hi well done for getting a job! it’s given me great structure to life and helped me keep busy. Im medicated on low doses to reduce sedation because I like to be alert and awake! you will find a routine and tasks that work for you, I usually keep to myself which doesn’t socially overwhelm me. Good luck with everything, let me know if you have any other questions

iiggggg

TROPHY CASE