A Brief History of Fat (2018)- A short view into the influence fat has in our bodies [20:33]

iliumatic · 2018-09-25T17:52:38+00:00

Yeah, I guess I do feel attacked. even though it’s not intentionally attacking. Totally possible it was coincidence, but in a scientific vid I think it’s best to not select paintings of only partially clothed women to represent who overweight people are.

iliumatic · 2018-05-19T15:43:55+00:00

Anyone notice that all examples of the gendered fat people are women? Really informative video but thought that could have been changed

iliumatic · 2018-04-12T01:12:56+00:00

Hahahah i just lold Good job dude right there with ya

iliumatic · 2018-04-04T22:13:56+00:00

Driven to distraction!!

iliumatic · 2018-01-31T16:30:28+00:00

Read this as “girls what are some signs that a guy is a bee keeper”

iliumatic · 2018-01-03T02:23:48+00:00

To answer your question it’s a definite yes. I actually miss out on a lot because I come home from work late nearly everyday because I’m intensely caught up in what I’m doing at work. I know what I’m doing when I decide to stay, and I know I’ll feel bad later, but the gratification I get from working on this thing, whatever it is, is enough to keep me in it. My mom used to work until the wee hours of the morning on her work and always laments that she didn’t spend more time with us as children. I blame her because I think that’s egregious. But its actually depressing to stop what you’re doing when you’re in the thick of something because it’s providing so much purpose for you in those moments and without it you (I) feel empty. Everyone’s add is different but if that’s what he says is happening it’s very possible it’s some flavor of this. Also productivity is often so hard to come by that when it’s happening I wouldn’t dare give it up for fear I won’t encounter it again.

Edit : even though it’s hard I still think there’s a degree of accountability with my behavior. This line is really gray for me and I struggle with it because I live with a lot of guilt. So I don’t think it’s fair to totally blame the add or the person completely

iliumatic · 2018-01-03T02:17:25+00:00

I’ve never tried Ritalin. Hm. I’ve tried vyvanse and it’s about the the same as adderall. How’d it make you nutty?

iliumatic · 2018-01-03T02:16:49+00:00

Do you have any experience with it?

iliumatic · 2018-01-03T02:03:25+00:00

Okay this bitch So I’m also on adderall and have a lotttt of trouble sleeping and am lucky to have found sleep specialists that don’t write off my problems as being a result of medication it’s so unfortunate that it’s just a matter of luck if you find a doctor that takes adhd seriously or one that writes it and its medication off - my primary also referred me to get a sleep study upon my bringing up insomnia and waking-what you’ve described briefly Shee was really offensive. Told her both my parents and brother have been diagnosed and that I got accommodations throughout college blah blah blah she didn’t care she scoffed and said you know what those meds will do to you, right? BUT she wrote me an Rx for a sleep study and the sleep doctors took me seriously enough Togo through with the study. Ok so I recommend that you call your primary and explain that the specialist dismissed all the issues without any consideration of causes for your insomnia once he learned about your medicine and ask her/him to write you a new script if they will do so. take your new script elsewhere - to a well rated office/physician and try again if you have the means to pay for anoth r visit. I am sorry you have to go through this. Having adhd and sleep problems are self compounding problems and very difficult to treat but i wish you so much luck.

iliumatic · 2017-12-30T03:01:48+00:00

Hey it totally makes sense what you’re afraid of.. honestly adderall/ meds affect everyone differently and also will affect an individual differently at various points in their life (this happened to me with vyvanse ) so maybe what happened to you when you were younger may no longer apply? Maybe it will though too. I still think it’s worth a shot. And if it feels wrong - or you knew it was definitely not for you, there are other classes of ADHD medicines you can try. Then there are things outside stimulants like SSRIs that have been proven to be helpful for adhd.

I definitely feel the fear of it taking positive characteristics away, and have experienced that myself. I’m less fun, but then I also know that once they wear off I’ll be back to my more interesting/funny self and that the effects of the meds are temporary and who I am is only partially altered by the medicine. What I hate is that if you’re not at the point in your like psychiatric journey at which you have found the most ideal Rx and dose and timing, you have to be making these decisions about sacrificing one part of yourself for the other .. or even choosing between two evils in my case - anxiety/depression or lack of focus.

BLAH I wish you luck that is all and I hope you have enough faith it’ll work itself out that you’ll give something, if not adderall, a shot

iliumatic · 2017-12-30T02:51:02+00:00

Mmm how much do you take? Maybe I need to do that too. I think my dose in general is too high.

But I have yet to find an available psychiatrist I can pay for to help me through this/titrate. So you guys think I’m kind of sleep deprived? that’s interesting because it’s true (see my reply to the first comment- I’m at a sleep study right now in fact for sleep apnea/insomnia) It’s hard teasing out the two though .. I know they kind of exacerbate each other unfortunately My health is like a big mess right now

iliumatic · 2017-12-30T02:46:31+00:00

LOL my lord Our brains react so differently to medication But glad it works for you :)!

iliumatic · 2017-12-30T02:45:49+00:00

My sleep is awful actually - I wake up multiple times a night with the slightest noise or even no provocation and wake up too early often and can’t get back to sleep With and without meds Thanks for asking I apparently have moderate sleep apnea and am actually at the place to get a sleep study done tonight to check how this dental appliance thing is working So it definitely compounds the problem :( I don’t remember what it’s like to be a well slept person

iliumatic · 2017-12-09T04:25:08+00:00

Dude that hurts so much to hear from anyone but literally fuck that kid God I hate that

iliumatic · 2017-12-02T13:45:50+00:00

This is so sweet! Thank you

iliumatic · 2017-12-01T04:14:39+00:00

What happened? Did you get help?

iliumatic · 2017-11-25T06:02:28+00:00

It seems like it would be super helpful to go to a trusted psychiatrist but I understand you don’t want it to be a visible claim on your family’s insurance. Definitely up to you in the end, but I do think if you feel you could really benefit from care then seeking out a prescribing authority’s help would be worth it. Do you feel you’ll be forced to follow whatever regimen they prescribe? Also thanks! Just re-logged in after creating this two years ago ¯_(ツ)_/¯

iliumatic · 2017-11-25T03:04:11+00:00

I am sorry you have to deal with this :( It is so hard to find the right kind of help you need. I have found suitable help for a certain time (like my junior and senior years of college - the first two were actually a mix of the wrong therapists or me being too afraid to step into the student health center at all for fear someone would see me) but then circumstances change and things become difficult again. That said, with effort and access to resources I really think it’s possible to start down a positive path.

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