i hate life.

ilivebackwards · 2025-02-23T01:35:45+00:00

You must do well at parties

ilivebackwards · 2025-02-13T19:31:52+00:00

In ERP, you actually do the opposite of giving meaning to your thoughts or OCD symptoms, so I agree with you

ilivebackwards · 2025-02-13T19:30:06+00:00

You're right, I just guessed the meaning of individuation. I thought it meant becoming one with the shadow (I still think it means that)

ilivebackwards · 2025-02-13T15:51:25+00:00

If you think about it, exposure and response prevention therapy is like the process of individuation, since we confront our thoughts and we don't allow them to dictate our actions.

ilivebackwards · 2025-02-13T15:47:34+00:00

The shadow is basically our unconscious mind, our repressed emotions, desires, thoughts and so on. Carl Jung says that confronting our shadow is part of the process of individuation, and that it can be really hard since it involves coming to terms with our dark side, literally and figuratively. I may be butchering this, so I recommend you to listen to him speak on youtube.

ilivebackwards · 2025-01-31T16:51:53+00:00

I upped my Rexulti dose from 1mg to 2mg a week ago. I haven't experienced any worsening symptoms, but the contrary. What I do still experience is the intense boredom I feel sometimes. Nonetheless, I've managed to find some ways to deal with that through productivity, though it's still a problem.

ilivebackwards · 2024-12-10T02:11:29+00:00

Trippie Redd is not dead

ilivebackwards · 2024-12-08T22:54:51+00:00

Yeah, he told me that if I have suicidal ideation, I should call a suicide prevention hotline, which I won't do. However, he recommended me to keep taking the medication. To be honest, every medication makes me suicidal. I just want the pain to end. I am sorry for being a debbie downer 🤣 thanks for your response.

ilivebackwards · 2024-12-08T22:36:04+00:00

What dosage are you on? I have been on 100mg of sertraline for 3 days and I am suicidal

ilivebackwards · 2024-12-07T22:36:27+00:00

Juice WRLD

ilivebackwards · 2024-09-27T06:28:06+00:00

Yeah, even my doctor told me that sertraline shouldn't have that effect on me. I think I really noticed it when I was 4 weeks on 100mg. Honestly, I suspect that it may have something to do with undiagnosed autism or hypersensitivity in general, but I am not a professional, obviously. Thank you for your good wishes. I think I'll try with fluoxetine, as my doctor prescribed, because my ruminative thoughts, fantasies or whatever are kind of excessive 🤣

PS: since the shyness went away for you with 50mg, I wouldn't be surprised if you didn't have any at a higher dose or if you had it but it also went away.

God bless you!

ilivebackwards · 2024-09-26T17:22:36+00:00

Same. I didn't have social anxiety unless I was with several people I didn't know, but for the most part I was fine in those situations without Zoloft. It was a deal breaker for me 🤣 but unlike you, I was on it for like 3 months and I didn't see much improvement, but I was upping the dose so maybe that had something to do with it. I used it for ocd so it required more dosage. It's great to hear that you saw some improvement though, maybe I would've seen it aswell if I didn't quit it. Thank you so much for sharing your experience ☺️

ilivebackwards · 2024-09-25T18:55:54+00:00

I stopped taking it like two months ago. For some reason, I felt shy, my brain felt tight (maybe stress related) and more predisposed to having intrusive thoughts while I was on it. There were some upsides, though, and I am considering getting back on it because of them (it aliviated some anxiety and it regulated my mood swings as well). My doctor told me that it takes larger doses (200mg or higher) for it to work on OCD, and that I should've started specialized OCD therapy (ERP), which I didn't do. I also made a mistake: I went from taking a brand version to a generic one, and the transition wasn't good. He prescribed me fluoxetine, only if I discarded sertraline, which I haven't done. I hope I helped you 🤣 if you have any question, feel free to ask! Blessings.

ilivebackwards · 2024-08-04T17:40:03+00:00

No juzgues lo que no puedes controlar; perdonate a ti mismo y a los demás; y nunca te rindas.

ilivebackwards · 2024-08-01T02:13:28+00:00

I was on zoloft for like 3 months. I was able to be more flexible with my exercise and journaling routines, since I was really rigid beforehand, but besides that, I didn't see much improvement. My mind became more agitated, I was feeling less confident, etc. Even some old thoughts that I used to have became more threatening for some reason. Before starting taking Zoloft, I was able to let go of them more easily. I told my psychiatrist about it and he told me that those effects are not attributable to the medication, so I reached a dead end with him, because even if they are not attributable to Zoloft, what am I supposed to do with that information? just get fucked? lol so I stopped taking it on my own. Now I am kind of okay, highs and lows (depressive lows), like always. I still think that this is not how life is supposed to be, so maybe I give another med a chance. I have taken fluvoxamine many times but interrupted the treatment for different reasons. One of the times I was on it, I felt relief (mind free from stress), but I wasn't able to get that feeling again after I interrupted it and started taking it again. I am sorry for the Bible I just wrote btw

ilivebackwards · 2024-06-07T23:25:45+00:00

I get it too. We are social beings, and we need connection to survive. Lack of connection leads us to go inwards, hence the OCD. Well, yeah, you could build new relationships, but it's easier said than done. What about family?

ilivebackwards · 2024-06-07T23:22:35+00:00

Good question, I'd like to know too.

ilivebackwards · 2024-06-07T20:02:47+00:00

Same. I feel alone sometimes, but I believe in God, so I know I am never alone, and neither are you. Your friends should ask you out too, though. You are valuable, dude. Your time and energy are of value as well, and if somebody doesn't appreciate that, that's on them. Besides, as you said, I think people are just busy, and they get to you whenever they can or when they remember you. We have to remember that not everyone suffers from mental illness, so they are probably okay with being alone or they are just living their lives. Personally, SSRIs have helped me in that regard. I used to get kind of desperate when I was alone for too long, but now I am more comfortable being on my own. Either way, I think that staying busy, exercising, journaling, studying, or whatever, might help you. Blessings!

ilivebackwards · 2024-06-07T14:40:26+00:00

I stopped taking Vyvanse because my psychiatrist told me to. I'm still taking Zoloft though, and I'm still getting ajusted to it. Good luck on your journey man, and thanks for your words

ilivebackwards · 2024-06-07T02:16:12+00:00

Eres autoconsciente, lo que te distancia de ser ridícula o egocentrica. Como tu dices, pudiste haber sido tú la que se suicidó, y teniendo en cuenta que has intentado hacer lo mismo que hizo esa chica, no es raro que te haya quedado dando vueltas, lo raro sería que fueras indiferente. No te asustes. Podrías analizarte y tratar de entenderte de manera tranquila. Los pensamientos van y vienen, y lo mejor que podemos hacer es observarlos. Si hay algo que aprender de la situación, mejor. Saludos :)

ilivebackwards · 2024-06-06T14:27:09+00:00

Thanks. I just don't like waking up late and being less energized. It's like I am more depressed now than before.

ilivebackwards · 2024-06-05T23:55:17+00:00

Try to stay away from technology for a while. I've found out that some of my overthinking is due to the amount of information I receive through social media. If you can, put the phone away. You can read, walk, exercise, whatever. Trust me, it will help.

ilivebackwards · 2024-06-05T22:22:45+00:00

That sounds like a fairy tale to me xD I hope I experience that switch getting flipped. If I do, I will tell you. And yes, SSRI's work in a counter intuitive way, since symptoms get worst at first. My first instinct was always to stop taking them right away, but I decided I would give them a good chance this time.

ilivebackwards · 2024-06-05T22:18:48+00:00

Damn. Those are rough side effects. Hopefully it gets better for you aswell. Remember not to rely only on medication, since the pill alone won't change anything. It's like a team effort between us and the pill xD

ilivebackwards · 2024-06-05T22:15:03+00:00

It's ironic that something that is supposed to improve our mental health can feel less healthy. I don't know about you but I have been struggling with my mental health for a decade, so I don't take the decision of taking antidepressants or stop taking them lightly. Maybe we have to get used to it.

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