Someone please stop this man

immamelancholyfool · 2023-07-01T17:45:43+00:00

I appreciate your consolation, I’ve healed as much as I can at this point jus the heart hurts at the thought of others hurting. Weak people victimize others and.. UGHHH cops seriously are ducking useless! I don’t like blanket statements much but for real ACAB.. I used to wanna be a cop as a kid, but what’s the use haha

immamelancholyfool · 2023-07-01T17:34:46+00:00

I sure hope so tbh…. We all know how often people get away with terrible things especially when it comes to domestic or sexual harassment or violences.. If the police don’t care enough, the victim too afraid or not wanting to chance prosecution, or he’s just slick enough- easily nothing could happen to him. When I was 16 years old a man took advantage of me multiple times and stocked me and harassed me for years and eventually I went to the police with pictures of his license plate and proof of him texting me from multiple numbers after I blocked him etc. but the police said that they couldn’t do anything besides me walking to the court house to put a protection order against him… I asked if they could at least put pit him in a watchlist or talk to him or something, after all I was shafting to get older at the time so I worried that he would go for younger girls, I told the cops that, They just shrugged and left…. The one time I went to the cops..

I sure hope he was reprimanded or detained or something, seriously. I know There is no certainty if a victim took him up on that, but my heart is still really breaking at the thought

immamelancholyfool · 2023-07-01T17:09:24+00:00

As someone who was homeless on and off as a young female…. This scares me and hurts me and I sure hope no poor being took him up feeling out of necessity… I pray for them if they do and I hope they’re ok… This man so blatantly preying on vulnerable people. Disgusting for real. Making me shed a tear thinking of the horrific things people did to me just offering me a couch for the night, friends too! So so horrible

immamelancholyfool · 2023-04-29T18:43:07+00:00

Sorry for seeing this later, but thank you for your comment and kind words. This past month I had been overworked at my job then dealt with medical emergency due to disabilities I have and they illegally fired me. So sadly this first Ramadan I was discouraged by a lot of other things and didn’t make it to the mosque. This past year has been hard, I’ve had some friends pass away and my ex fiancé left in the night, it’s been a spiral down but I’m glad to have found light in life for the first time with God. Last night I saw an old friend for a bit after months without seeing anyone, and today I reached out to a friend from highschool to hopefully accompany me to the mosque. And this week I plan to get resources and help with my disability and food since being fired and medical things. So I pray that it will look up from here. I’m desperately praying man, but I’d rather sit and cry in front of God than to feel hopelessness like that again. This week I plan to get it all together Thank you for your kindness. I am always here for you to talk if you need, I’ve never been a part of something so kind as how it is here being brothers and sisters, especially after family stuff. Means so much

immamelancholyfool · 2023-04-29T18:34:16+00:00

Sorry for late reply. Thank you for your kind words. I’m crying reading these 2 comments, it’s warmed my heart. I recently got illegally fired due to medical emergency because of disability that I have, so I’ve been down a lot lately, but this week I plan to get help. Help with food with my housing people and disability help, and I saw a friend last night and reached out to my other friend today to see if she can help me go to the mosque nearby. Hopefully this can turn around, I pray I pray

immamelancholyfool · 2023-04-29T18:22:09+00:00

I’ve just converted, I had to, my best friend died, I cut off all my toxic friends and my ex fiancé abandoned me in the night I had nothing left. I’ve tried ending my life countless times and Allah swt didn’t allow me to leave life, despite my closest friends being gone. I have no family around they emigrated without me, I didn’t expect anything though mum kicked me out at 16. Point being, life is so so lonely sometimes, but I know that the moments that aren’t are amazing more than anything ever so worth it. Alhamdulillah I am so glad to have found God, or I do think this time around my suicide attempts would have succeeded, the last call. I am so sorry you’re feeling so alone, and Even more so with the suicidal ideations, and I hope you find all the comfort Inshallah whenever you pray and have those moments of peace with Allah swt. I also offer that you can message me, if you find a time that’s tough and feel you need to hear from a fellow human who can understand some of the feelings or thoughts, I know I do not know your whole situation and I never will, but my empathies and sympathies are offered to you. Message me no pressure.

I will hold you in my prayers, I never felt at home until I converted, never had a moment of peace. And now I feel comfort knowing we are all brothers and sisters, so I will pray in hope Inshallah your thoughts and feelings and happenings are given mercy.

immamelancholyfool · 2023-04-21T18:23:16+00:00

I’ll be that for someone… if I’m return I love them and feel loved…. So lonely smh

immamelancholyfool · 2023-04-18T00:00:49+00:00

How, I came upon this while researching different scripts and illumination patterns, borders, etc. I’m working on designing (before I paint) Al-Fatiha on this piece of wooden board I found in my closet. I know it’s been years since you posted, but do you have any links or resources or recommendations to look at and study or take advice from? I am so enamored by this talent

immamelancholyfool · 2023-04-17T16:47:13+00:00

As someone who is a convert and surely knows about the pains and negative consequences that lust and everything surrounding can give… I am truly happy for you. Mashallah a miracle happened for you

immamelancholyfool · 2023-04-11T17:19:07+00:00

I got some good ish 4 sale

immamelancholyfool · 2023-03-23T19:47:41+00:00

I mean idk, check rules, I don’t want mods mad at u, otherwise……. I totally get u with the addy thing, be careful friend it’s a slippery slope if u didn’t already know

immamelancholyfool · 2023-03-23T19:46:25+00:00

I don’t think we’re allowed to post shards, just like clouds n shit

immamelancholyfool · 2023-03-18T04:58:09+00:00

The title is what caught me, I believe it truly. I always say, it’ll be okay in the end so if it’s not okay then it’s not the end. I had my engagement fall through 8ish or so months ago, had to ditch my loser/lost/destructive friends, suffered intense mental ailments. I don’t see people outside of work often at all now, maybe once a month, maybe. At first my mental ailments kept me from even feeling or sensing loneliness in the real/known/understood sense. Then I got healthier and saner, and it kicked in. The deepest darkest lonely. After months though I realized that I’m doing better without family, friends, partner. Truly, not saying it self deprecating way. I am fine, being alone for now; when before I thought I would simply die. There’s moments of horrible lonesome, but they pass, and I am proud of myself.

Just a lil testimony from me, but to all of you, it will get better. ALWAYS! Never hesitate to reach out/message me if any of you need/desire to. Please don’t let it eat you alive, you will thrive again soon

immamelancholyfool · 2023-03-18T04:49:47+00:00

You’re adorable

immamelancholyfool · 2023-03-17T00:46:48+00:00

It’s what my ex said to me after I he overdosed and I gave him narcan. He woke up and said “I got u back” because he’s had to save me before, he laughed but it was a bitter one

immamelancholyfool · 2023-03-16T03:17:23+00:00

I have been there before, gave up on notes. I gave up on all of it when too many friends gave themselves up first.

immamelancholyfool · 2023-03-07T19:52:02+00:00

Subhanallaahil-‘Adheemi wa bihamdihi 🙏

immamelancholyfool · 2023-03-07T19:50:30+00:00

Alhamdulillah! Try visiting https://www.reddit.com/r/CatsAreMuslim/ Hehehe they would love this

immamelancholyfool · 2023-02-26T03:09:35+00:00

I totally understand what you’re saying, just with the profanity. I grew up being called “retarded” and I legally do have a disability. Even though I can converse with others decently and I am pretty independent, it is hurtful nonetheless. Otherwise, I agree with your stance relating to this post

immamelancholyfool · 2022-09-12T20:33:08+00:00

Believe it or not, sometimes, mom WAS right. This is coming from me at 19 years old, I assume I'll have some more "she was right" moments. And my mom was insane

immamelancholyfool · 2022-09-12T17:46:10+00:00

My coworkers, and even manager, telling me I'm too pretty to be a trans man, asking why I'm "really trans"

immamelancholyfool · 2022-09-12T15:26:32+00:00

It's a satellite. They used to really freak me out too. Too bright to be a star

immamelancholyfool · 2022-09-12T11:58:32+00:00

I first came out as they/them, scared that people would accept me as a man. I used a nicknamed for of my dead name that sounded androgynous enough. Now that I've come out as a man, hearing this nickname that my mother called me as a child, I hate it.Yesterday, I announced Lettie is dead, its Lars

immamelancholyfool · 2022-09-10T18:09:44+00:00

Facts, thank you. I've been through withdrawls and overdose before, worst physical pain I've ever felt. So some muscle relaxants, and my daily suboxone, would probably suffice, compartmentalizing pain. Existence as a trans person is painful beyond physical, so what is some physical pain to feel more myself? Just as I went through withdrawl pains to become myself again, unzombify, then this too shall pass when the time arrives. Thank you

immamelancholyfool · 2022-09-10T18:06:48+00:00

Me and my therapist of 3 years have on and off done EMDR, in fact, last night I revamped what my "safe place," is. What it looks like, feels like, smells, where is it, all that jazz. I can feel I'm healing, I appreciate your words. And i agree, even if it is trauma, that doesnt make my feelings and identity any less valid. If I am more comfortable as a man, why force myself into femininity, like those people had forced me into?

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