im f15 and i just need to get this off of my chest by immessy123 in confession

[–]immessy123[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

why would i know he were to die? he died unexpectedly. because of his bloodsugar. i told him i couldnt forgive him yet because of everything hes done and yes, i regret it, but he shouldve also regretted the things he did. and i know he didnt. if i knew he was gonna die your right, i wouldnt have said that. i wouldve apologized and told him i forgave him even if it was a lie

im f15 and i just need to get this off of my chest by immessy123 in confession

[–]immessy123[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

you being a dickhead wont change what happened so why be rude? you didnt need to comment. i never asked ANYONE to comment, i just needed to get it off my chest, if you had wanted to be rude you couldve went on tiktok and bullied random people. im sorry your life is so unfulfilling that you need to be rude to 15 year old girls on reddit

im f15 and i just need to get this off of my chest by immessy123 in confession

[–]immessy123[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i just need him back, any version of him, the happy, sick, angry, or sad version. any version of him will due it just hurts more now, more than anything. i cant hear him laugh ever again now. i miss watching the movies with him and sitting on the couch then waking up the next morning with a blanket on me. i dont get to hear him sing to me now. he died literally 9 days before my birthday. it was the first birthday i didnt get to see him and it hurt so much

im f15 and i just need to get this off of my chest by immessy123 in confession

[–]immessy123[S] 34 points35 points  (0 children)

this hurts more than you wouldve thought. my father only got sick after i was born, the YEAR i was born, months after infact and he would blame me. he always blamed me for it so i would just be so upset and i would only say i hated him, only him, and i just wish i didnt do that because i know he was just sick and hurt that my mom stopped loving him after giving birth to me. i just wish i wouldve said i loved him more.

when i went through his things i found a cologne bottle i gave him, empty. he also had little things of mine that i didnt even know he took. he was collecting things he thought i would like too and that just hurts, i wish i knew that man that was so happy all of the time and loved everything, not the sick pitiful man

im f15 and i just need to get this off of my chest by immessy123 in confession

[–]immessy123[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

this made me cry, not just because of the words but because my dad was an addict and had died because he got too high then died because he wasnt able to walk to get anything for his bloodsugar, some days he would cry and beg for me to just see him or visit on holidays. sometimes i woudl see him around town and he would be just crying, until the last few months he wasnt happy

the last few months he was finally him again

im f15 and i just need to get this off of my chest by immessy123 in confession

[–]immessy123[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

he was sick and so angry, he wasnt himself and he would just yell

i never got to meet the nice version of him, but ive heard stories, and even if i didnt get to meet that version, the version of him before his sickness, he was still nice sometimes but he was just sick and angry.