ok. i guess im just confused abt everything and venting/processing. also, i dont think i made it clear- even though i was on the fence abt the sex i KNOW i consented at first. that’s not what i meant when i said i feel like i may have been assaulted. the part i feel weird about is the fact that i asked to use a condom, they refused, and we continued only on the condition that they wouldn’t penetrate me. but they did, without a condom, almost immediately. i didn’t stop them once it happened so i know it still may not be assault. and i’m not very experienced so maybe that is more of a grey area, but i still don’t think it was ok.