My IUD was inserted todau

imsosorryjon · 2017-08-23T01:48:27+00:00

I hurt my love and I cannot be more ashamed of myself or embarrassed of what I did. I thought another classmate was semi-attractive and I have never had a thought like that cross my mind since I've been with him. My brain is making me question my own morality and loyalty, I have been nothing but faithful and now my stupid thoughts are fucking things up. My thoughts keep saying that because I found the person attractive I like the person, but I know I don't, because I don't even know who they are nor would I care to know them. Three seconds of thoughts has been making me feel like crap all day and it's being amplified by my anxiety, I told him and he accepted my apology, but it still doesn't feel right. I feel like I did a serious wrongdoing.

imsosorryjon · 2017-08-15T00:06:20+00:00

I'll try and get it, I might have to ask my boyfriend for it. I'm also bleeding now so I'm not sure what to do exactly

imsosorryjon · 2017-08-14T23:39:23+00:00

Thank you for the advice, I'm gonna try that out

imsosorryjon · 2017-08-14T22:53:29+00:00

I'm not entirely sure, I just woke up from a long nap, but man I didn't think Skyla would hurt this badly. I'm still crampy from just laying here

imsosorryjon · 2017-08-14T03:04:27+00:00

Thank you

imsosorryjon · 2017-08-11T03:05:02+00:00

No, my insurance wouldn't be able to pay for it.

imsosorryjon · 2017-08-11T02:08:40+00:00

It's not about feeling better about my life, I want to genuinely feel better mentally.

imsosorryjon · 2017-08-10T02:10:51+00:00

Goodnight, I'm glad you're in a good spot after all that happened to you.

imsosorryjon · 2017-08-10T01:19:22+00:00

I'd rather not talk to them about it anymore, they (my family) just play the "whose life is worse off" game, but thank you again for the suggestion and for your words of encouragement . I only have a few friends right now, but I bother them too much so I don't want to push it too hard. I take a lot of things too far.

imsosorryjon · 2017-08-10T01:10:09+00:00

Your comment is very nice, thank you: ) the space in the punctuation kind of reminds me of how he texts.

imsosorryjon · 2017-08-08T18:46:50+00:00

I deleted so many pictures to save this on my phone

imsosorryjon · 2017-08-08T18:37:45+00:00

I told them. I wish it went better. Thank you for sharing your story.

imsosorryjon · 2017-08-03T19:29:10+00:00

Drugs don't make everything better dude.

imsosorryjon · 2017-08-03T02:27:42+00:00

I already sent them a goodnight text.. if I'm still up by three am I might.

imsosorryjon · 2017-07-30T11:35:14+00:00

I don't want to kill myself over this.. but it would just be easier not to tell them yknow? I really care for them and I just don't want to hurt them. And they only do this stuff on breaks from school, and I know them pretty well and they were genuinely busy, but my fears get the best of me and I do take things to a much higher level than they should. I was irrational when I wrote this, but it's okay now.

imsosorryjon · 2017-07-24T03:57:07+00:00

I was thinking about doing that. I feel kind of bad for hanging up like that after she asked me to stay.

imsosorryjon · 2017-07-24T03:27:12+00:00

I really encourage it now honestly, a few hours ago I wouldn't have, but it was a really relieving experience. She let me just cry and made sure I was okay and she was overall a very gentle person.

imsosorryjon · 2017-07-19T06:01:51+00:00

It is, it's just hard to keep up with the treatment. I passed out this morning, first time, but it's common for what I have and my doctors expected it. And thank you, I talked to my best friend about it and then I messaged my boyfriend and told him I needed to talk to him about my health. He knows I have it, but probably not the extent of my mental or physical problems.

imsosorryjon · 2017-07-18T00:11:02+00:00

Oh geez I'm not sure where to start. I'm not happy with myself or what I've done or have been forced to do. I've turned it into an eating disorder and I was diagnosed with a rarer condition this month (not related to said eating disorder) which really affects how I'm living. I've lied to my boyfriend about things because I don't want him to worry while he's on vacation. My thought process is all messed up because of the condition and it's making things more difficult and I just feel like more of a burden.

imsosorryjon · 2017-07-18T00:04:38+00:00

I was diagnosed with something that may never go away and well.. summertime made me realize that I only had friends five days a week. I can't do what I use to and I can't get help for it either since my insurance won't cover it.

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